Not at the half way point yet, but overall, I have been able to focus and try to make this a meaningful Lenten Season. Another snowy day in Cleveland. The week kicks off with what has been a daily event of late, shoveling the snow. Great exercise, for the young and in shape! However, shoveling time is also a great time to reflect, let go, and forget everything for the duration of the shoveling drill.
This week's reflections hit close to home, literally. 2 Kgs 5:1-15b; Lk 4:24-30. Today's reflection speaks of Jesus being rejected by those closest to him. And it is so true. I often wonder why we bend over backwards for strangers, those we meet but once along the way. Yet, we feud on a regular basis and hurt the greatest those we love the most. A puzzle I have been mulling over for years!
I do not have the answer. However, a perfect time of the year, of the Lenten Season, to try and "forgive" or just peacefully co-exist with those closest to us. I can honestly say, I would die for my family and dearest friends. Maybe I should try harder to "love" them, show them I love them and treat them as I oftentimes treat "strangers."
This new insight follows in stride with the second lesson for this day. Open your mind. Pilate could have gone either way. He knew what would happen with either decision he made. Instead of choosing the truth, he chose what made him the most popular. We are asked today to open our minds TO the truth. If we do what we know is right, we will find happiness and peace.
Isn't that the truth! We have decisions to make. We know what we WANT to do and what we SHOULD do. Even if we are afraid to do the right thing, when we choose it, we feel good. We get a warming effect over our inner soul.
We just need to be strong enough, gutsy enough to do what God wants us to do, and everything will fall into place. I truly believe that with every move I make. However, it's not as easy as it sounds.
One final thought from the Saginaw Diocese, the little black book lessons. In years past, the day and night were not defined as they are today. We go from midnight to midnight. In years past, some generations ended their day at dusk. Some generations ended their day at noon. As you can see, nothing is just plain black and white and events change through time. You can throw out a topic to a dozen folks, and you will get a dozen different responses. That is why we just need to stick to our convictions. Follow our head. Follow our heart. Follow what we believe is right. And stick to the reasoning "what would Jesus do?"
Let's open our minds, open our hearts, and follow Jesus' path through the streets of Jerusalem.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
3rd Weekend into Lent
A tremendous 3rd Weekend into Lent! The readings at Church hit deep chords. The tradition which kicks off today, "Sundays of Scrutinies" coincides perfectly with the Lenten Reflections.
Sundays of Scrutinies has been explained to me as a time when disciples learning about Jesus and preparing to enter the Church make their final preparations. The lessons have been taught, and now they must look at their lives.
Lent is a period of time for all of us to take a look at our lives, look deep within, and see if we are living up to God's expectations. We may already be members of the Church, but it is never too late to look at what we are doing and how we can do it even better--how we can be better followers of Jesus Christ.
In today's readings, everyone has felt at one time or another the way the Samaritan woman felt. Sometimes we miss the richness of life that is going on right before our very eyes. We may be standing at the well of life, speaking to Jesus Christ and not even recognize Him. That is when we have to take a step back, from the craziness surrounding our days, and search for the richness and truth. We do not have to look far for new ideas, fresh thoughts, friendship of others, and new ways we can do God's will and make a difference in today's world.
Along with recognizing the richness of life, I must forgive. Jn 4:5-42; Jn 2:13-25; Lk 13:1-9. If I can not allow myself to forgive, the eternal spring Jesus speaks of will be blocked forever. I will miss out on God's graces and eternal life. Ask yourself if there is anyone that you must forgive this week and pray for them.
You only have to open your eyes to hear God's teachings. Ironically, Mom and I watched two great movies this weekend: 'Snowbuddies' and 'Ratatouille.' God's messages were running rampant in both of these family movies. I won't go into either of them. You must see them! However, one line from 'Snowbuddies' hit hardest. I will mess up the translation but basically, reader's digest version stated: Our lives may take various twists & turns that we had not planned. However, wherever we are is WHERE we are MEANT to be at this time.
One final thought about what has kept me going this Lent. Family and friends. It is wonderful to look down from the Choir Loft during Mass and see so many friends and family. I am home. To look down and see Mom, Uncle Sam, my cousin Johnny and little Sammy...and then to see dear friends who I have known my whole life who ARE like family. Former neighbors from when I was a small child like Johnny and Katie or the Caserta's (who have moved out of the Parish but told us this is THEIR parish and they will continue to make the trek each weekend!), the Trigiani's...the list is endless. They are family. This is home. I truly believe everyone should evolve and grow a little everyday. But I have a stronger belief that we should not run away from our past. We should remember and cherish where we came from, who we met along the way and who helped us to become who we are today! No sooner did I come home from singing my third Mass when Mom says that my cousin Tommy will be coming over to visit this afternoon. What a joy! It follows with the above theme that Family is so important. Tommy did come over and spent over four hours with us. What a WONDERFUL afternoon we had. We caught up, shared stories, laughed at past remembrances, honored those who have passed, and recognized that no matter how busy life gets, family can stand the test of time!
Sundays of Scrutinies has been explained to me as a time when disciples learning about Jesus and preparing to enter the Church make their final preparations. The lessons have been taught, and now they must look at their lives.
Lent is a period of time for all of us to take a look at our lives, look deep within, and see if we are living up to God's expectations. We may already be members of the Church, but it is never too late to look at what we are doing and how we can do it even better--how we can be better followers of Jesus Christ.
In today's readings, everyone has felt at one time or another the way the Samaritan woman felt. Sometimes we miss the richness of life that is going on right before our very eyes. We may be standing at the well of life, speaking to Jesus Christ and not even recognize Him. That is when we have to take a step back, from the craziness surrounding our days, and search for the richness and truth. We do not have to look far for new ideas, fresh thoughts, friendship of others, and new ways we can do God's will and make a difference in today's world.
Along with recognizing the richness of life, I must forgive. Jn 4:5-42; Jn 2:13-25; Lk 13:1-9. If I can not allow myself to forgive, the eternal spring Jesus speaks of will be blocked forever. I will miss out on God's graces and eternal life. Ask yourself if there is anyone that you must forgive this week and pray for them.
You only have to open your eyes to hear God's teachings. Ironically, Mom and I watched two great movies this weekend: 'Snowbuddies' and 'Ratatouille.' God's messages were running rampant in both of these family movies. I won't go into either of them. You must see them! However, one line from 'Snowbuddies' hit hardest. I will mess up the translation but basically, reader's digest version stated: Our lives may take various twists & turns that we had not planned. However, wherever we are is WHERE we are MEANT to be at this time.
One final thought about what has kept me going this Lent. Family and friends. It is wonderful to look down from the Choir Loft during Mass and see so many friends and family. I am home. To look down and see Mom, Uncle Sam, my cousin Johnny and little Sammy...and then to see dear friends who I have known my whole life who ARE like family. Former neighbors from when I was a small child like Johnny and Katie or the Caserta's (who have moved out of the Parish but told us this is THEIR parish and they will continue to make the trek each weekend!), the Trigiani's...the list is endless. They are family. This is home. I truly believe everyone should evolve and grow a little everyday. But I have a stronger belief that we should not run away from our past. We should remember and cherish where we came from, who we met along the way and who helped us to become who we are today! No sooner did I come home from singing my third Mass when Mom says that my cousin Tommy will be coming over to visit this afternoon. What a joy! It follows with the above theme that Family is so important. Tommy did come over and spent over four hours with us. What a WONDERFUL afternoon we had. We caught up, shared stories, laughed at past remembrances, honored those who have passed, and recognized that no matter how busy life gets, family can stand the test of time!
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Lent Day #17
We need to ask ourselves, do we do things to satisfy ourselves in the here and now or do we strive to do God's work for the hereafter? Today's readings: Gn 37:3-4, 12-13, 17-28; Mt 21: 33-43, 45-46. God hopes that we strive to plan for the Kingdom. Yet, we are human and finite and can not fathom that our earthly things are not needed in Heaven. We are human and do not want to part with those things we have worked hard to attain. It's quite the struggle.
In turn, Pilate struggled knowing very well that Jesus was innocent but wanting to win the popularity contest and please the masses. Every day we have to choose between right and wrong, between this and that. Dozens if not hundreds of times a day, we have to make decisions. And each decision leads to the next step of our life. We must not take any decision lightly and ask, "what would Jesus do?"
In turn, Pilate struggled knowing very well that Jesus was innocent but wanting to win the popularity contest and please the masses. Every day we have to choose between right and wrong, between this and that. Dozens if not hundreds of times a day, we have to make decisions. And each decision leads to the next step of our life. We must not take any decision lightly and ask, "what would Jesus do?"
Lent Day # 16
Today's reflection: Jer 17:5-10; Lk 16:19-31. We are in the midst of winter. It began balmy with high hopes of only a few blustery days. However, we are in Cleveland, Ohio. The trees are snow covered. Many plants are dormant until the Spring. However, there ARE still bushes that continue thriving and our Easter and Christmas Poinsettias are vibrant in their yellow and red. In today's readings, Jesus uses prayer, scripture, and the Bible to describe how living things continue to thrive, even in the midst of a cold, winter. Through God's word and daily prayer, our spirit is nourished, refreshed and we go through a rebirth each time we read a new scripture reading. We have to believe that this will keep us alive until we meet our Maker.
In the second lesson for today (Jn 18:28), another purpose of prayer is uncovering our blindspots. The very same people who directed Jesus to die were so particular about not violating Passover and the Sabbath. They were blinded in many ways. They did not see the entire picture, their priorities were a bit tilted. We can all admit to having blindspots at times. By praying, we take the cover off of the blindspot and light up what had been missing for so long.
Give me the faith and direction to uncover what blinds me most. Let me thrive through prayer, good works and following in your footsteps.
In the second lesson for today (Jn 18:28), another purpose of prayer is uncovering our blindspots. The very same people who directed Jesus to die were so particular about not violating Passover and the Sabbath. They were blinded in many ways. They did not see the entire picture, their priorities were a bit tilted. We can all admit to having blindspots at times. By praying, we take the cover off of the blindspot and light up what had been missing for so long.
Give me the faith and direction to uncover what blinds me most. Let me thrive through prayer, good works and following in your footsteps.
Lent Day # 15
Yet again, today's scripture keeps everything in perspective. Jn 18:26-27. Peter denied knowing Jesus for the 3rd time. Three strikes and you are out. However, we are NEVER out with Jesus. He keeps giving us chances. That is why we have to try very hard to give others the benefit of the doubt and continuous chances. It is hard. Oh, it is so hard. When you have been let down, deceived, ignored, or persecuted, the first impulse is revenge or anger. That is when we have to put ourselves in God's shoes and forgive 70 times 7.
Another reflection for today. Jer 18:18-20; Mt 20:17-28. Jesus believes that the greatest in his Kingdom is the most humble. How many times do we overextend ourselves to get that attaboy? Especially when others get them all the time for never lifting a finger or having an original thought. It is so hard to cruise through life invisible. Stand in the back of the line. Put others ahead of you. However, that line of thinking is God's way of thinking and the first shall be last while the last shall be first, ultimately.
Just remember, the honors, awards, and notoriety on earth mean nothing when you enter the pearly gates!
Another reflection for today. Jer 18:18-20; Mt 20:17-28. Jesus believes that the greatest in his Kingdom is the most humble. How many times do we overextend ourselves to get that attaboy? Especially when others get them all the time for never lifting a finger or having an original thought. It is so hard to cruise through life invisible. Stand in the back of the line. Put others ahead of you. However, that line of thinking is God's way of thinking and the first shall be last while the last shall be first, ultimately.
Just remember, the honors, awards, and notoriety on earth mean nothing when you enter the pearly gates!
Friday, February 22, 2008
Lent Day #14
It helps reading daily scripture. Seeing that the greatest disciples in the world, the men and women whom God deemed leaders and set up on a pedestal sinned, just like me.
Peter denies being a follower of Jesus for the 2nd time. How many times have I denied something or better yet, just said nothing at all. Though not the right thing to do, just seeing that Simon Peter caved in and showed his weakness gives me the strength to try again. So, I may have failed at something today or let someone down, but that is no reason to throw in the towel. Ironically, for every one disappointment, there are a dozen positives. However, why does the one bad move seem so much worse?
Another topic for today's reflections: Heavy burdens. The ordeal we've been going through has been a huge burden, yet so gratifying when seeing the current results! With God's help, we continue making it through. It has not been easy. I understand others may seem "overwhelmed and strained." However, what is exasperating to no end is that no one has opened their eyes wide enough to see how exhausting and difficult this has been for MOM and I! I just keep asking God to help me do the right thing, believe I will have the energy, patience, faith, and strength. No one should ever take the easy way out. It seems in today's society of NOW and FAST and IMMEDIATE and the EASY BUTTON, not too many people make sacrifices anymore or go above and beyond the call of duty.
At times, I admit, I'm a little bitter and feel sorry for myself. I try so hard not to be, because that is not becoming and not 'God-like.' But when I hear phrases like --"they just have to live their lives!" Well, 'yours truly' has a life that really wants to be lived too! You gotta laugh or you will cry! But, I've learned to let it go. I've resigned myself to the fact that, at this time, I am the proud owner of a very heavy responsibility. With responsibilities come sacrifices. Taking care of myself (doctors' appointments, exercise, general health), taking care of the house, travel, friends, just 'hanging out,' having a boyfriend, having even one refreshing cocktail once in a while, or just being me is on hold. If my Mother needs me, I have to be on the top of my game 24/7. I was supposed to visit my dearest friend soon in Tampa, Florida. That is an impossibility.
I have to let it go. It started making me physically ill. Eyes twitching, asthma attacks, shortness of breath. I can not let the actions (or lack of action) of others dictate my life, my health or my Mother's life. God will take care of us. We just have to believe, stick to our convictions, and lift up our burdens to Him!
Amazingly enough, this Lenten season has helped me forgive and move forward. I could NOT do it without God. Everyday I need God and others to tell me, "let it roll off your back. God will help carry that burden." And you know what, He will and He has!
Peter denies being a follower of Jesus for the 2nd time. How many times have I denied something or better yet, just said nothing at all. Though not the right thing to do, just seeing that Simon Peter caved in and showed his weakness gives me the strength to try again. So, I may have failed at something today or let someone down, but that is no reason to throw in the towel. Ironically, for every one disappointment, there are a dozen positives. However, why does the one bad move seem so much worse?
Another topic for today's reflections: Heavy burdens. The ordeal we've been going through has been a huge burden, yet so gratifying when seeing the current results! With God's help, we continue making it through. It has not been easy. I understand others may seem "overwhelmed and strained." However, what is exasperating to no end is that no one has opened their eyes wide enough to see how exhausting and difficult this has been for MOM and I! I just keep asking God to help me do the right thing, believe I will have the energy, patience, faith, and strength. No one should ever take the easy way out. It seems in today's society of NOW and FAST and IMMEDIATE and the EASY BUTTON, not too many people make sacrifices anymore or go above and beyond the call of duty.
At times, I admit, I'm a little bitter and feel sorry for myself. I try so hard not to be, because that is not becoming and not 'God-like.' But when I hear phrases like --"they just have to live their lives!" Well, 'yours truly' has a life that really wants to be lived too! You gotta laugh or you will cry! But, I've learned to let it go. I've resigned myself to the fact that, at this time, I am the proud owner of a very heavy responsibility. With responsibilities come sacrifices. Taking care of myself (doctors' appointments, exercise, general health), taking care of the house, travel, friends, just 'hanging out,' having a boyfriend, having even one refreshing cocktail once in a while, or just being me is on hold. If my Mother needs me, I have to be on the top of my game 24/7. I was supposed to visit my dearest friend soon in Tampa, Florida. That is an impossibility.
I have to let it go. It started making me physically ill. Eyes twitching, asthma attacks, shortness of breath. I can not let the actions (or lack of action) of others dictate my life, my health or my Mother's life. God will take care of us. We just have to believe, stick to our convictions, and lift up our burdens to Him!
Amazingly enough, this Lenten season has helped me forgive and move forward. I could NOT do it without God. Everyday I need God and others to tell me, "let it roll off your back. God will help carry that burden." And you know what, He will and He has!
Lent Day #13
Another work week. The last one was brutal. On one hand, the perfect test to assist me through the Lenten Season. On the other hand, could be seen as a cruel joke by the man above! However, ironically, this week's lenten reflections with the St Anthony Messenger Press actually showcase the workplace. "Clearing the Clutter out of my Work Life." Very fitting and necessary, at least for me. Though work is an extremely important and necessary task, there ARE other things in life of equal or much more importance.
Like Mom making dinner last night, almost all by herself, for the first time in a long time. A true blessing from God above.
Like Mom being able to walk from her pew at church all the way out the door, down the steps and to our car for the first time in a long time.
Watching the NBA All-Star Game Festivities with Mom. Oh, how the rest of the family is missing out on quality time with a wonderful woman, who really wasn't supposed to be here today. It's a modern day miracle. I have found it is much better to enjoy the ride along the way than focus on the final destination in this thing we call life.
Let us try to ponder whether we have work and life in perspective. While at work, focus on work. However, quality time and energy with family, friends, and utilizing our God-given talents should definitely weigh in somewhere through the course of our day!
The readings accompanying the Lenten reflection really hit home. It's very hard when someone smacks you in the face literally or figuratively. Well, it seems that Mom and I have been double whammied lately. Work, which I love dearly, has taken the wind out of my sails for weeks with certain injustices occurring time and time again. My pet peeves are laziness, lack of common sense & lack of communication. Well, over the last number of days, we've hit the trifecta! And now to add to the craziness, Mom was given the news that a family member will be helping her even less than she did before. Amazing. I can not judge. But there are some things in life that dumbfound me to no end. When the going gets tough, so many people run the other way! I think we should all walk in someone else's shoes for a day. But honestly, with the fabric of modern times, I am not sure how many people could withstand what we endure in a 24-hour period! Today's readings show that even though Jesus was mocked, and physically roughed up, he forgave on the spot. He was calm, honest, and forgiving.
I hope I can follow in his steps --and my actions viewed as "an imitation of Christ" day in and day out.
Like Mom making dinner last night, almost all by herself, for the first time in a long time. A true blessing from God above.
Like Mom being able to walk from her pew at church all the way out the door, down the steps and to our car for the first time in a long time.
Watching the NBA All-Star Game Festivities with Mom. Oh, how the rest of the family is missing out on quality time with a wonderful woman, who really wasn't supposed to be here today. It's a modern day miracle. I have found it is much better to enjoy the ride along the way than focus on the final destination in this thing we call life.
Let us try to ponder whether we have work and life in perspective. While at work, focus on work. However, quality time and energy with family, friends, and utilizing our God-given talents should definitely weigh in somewhere through the course of our day!
The readings accompanying the Lenten reflection really hit home. It's very hard when someone smacks you in the face literally or figuratively. Well, it seems that Mom and I have been double whammied lately. Work, which I love dearly, has taken the wind out of my sails for weeks with certain injustices occurring time and time again. My pet peeves are laziness, lack of common sense & lack of communication. Well, over the last number of days, we've hit the trifecta! And now to add to the craziness, Mom was given the news that a family member will be helping her even less than she did before. Amazing. I can not judge. But there are some things in life that dumbfound me to no end. When the going gets tough, so many people run the other way! I think we should all walk in someone else's shoes for a day. But honestly, with the fabric of modern times, I am not sure how many people could withstand what we endure in a 24-hour period! Today's readings show that even though Jesus was mocked, and physically roughed up, he forgave on the spot. He was calm, honest, and forgiving.
I hope I can follow in his steps --and my actions viewed as "an imitation of Christ" day in and day out.
2nd Weekend into Lent
We did something at my Church that our Pastor never does. He asked for money. It was a required assignment for all Pastors at all Churches --a directive from the Bishop --to solicit for Catholic Charities. Singing at all Masses, I heard the same song and dance each Mass, with a slight variation to keep it fresh for Father. He sure has a knack. He personalized his speech to encompass our own parishioners who have benefited from Catholic Charities. When you hear about the hardluck, heart warming stories of others, it makes you realize how blessed you really are and how much God has truly given you.
This weekend's readings and reflections actually have a direct correlation, believe it or not, with the Bishop's Plea. Prayer and Almsgiving. We are almost 2 weeks into Lent, and may feel down because we have not prayed as much as we would have liked or may have fallen behind on resolutions, and even giving to those in need. This weekend's reflection says don't get down on yourself. We may get down on ourselves or on others who disappoint or even anger us. But, the one being who is always there and NEVER lets us down is God. His grace is constantly at work in us. He never gives up on us, even when we are weak. We are in the midst of being enveloped by God's love, as in the transfiguration. Everything beams in the presence of Jesus Christ. We have to believe that a higher being is with us every step of the way and, even when we feel we have let ourselves, God, and others down, pick ourselves up and continue trudging forward.
Don't give up and spend some quiet time with Jesus.
This weekend's readings and reflections actually have a direct correlation, believe it or not, with the Bishop's Plea. Prayer and Almsgiving. We are almost 2 weeks into Lent, and may feel down because we have not prayed as much as we would have liked or may have fallen behind on resolutions, and even giving to those in need. This weekend's reflection says don't get down on yourself. We may get down on ourselves or on others who disappoint or even anger us. But, the one being who is always there and NEVER lets us down is God. His grace is constantly at work in us. He never gives up on us, even when we are weak. We are in the midst of being enveloped by God's love, as in the transfiguration. Everything beams in the presence of Jesus Christ. We have to believe that a higher being is with us every step of the way and, even when we feel we have let ourselves, God, and others down, pick ourselves up and continue trudging forward.
Don't give up and spend some quiet time with Jesus.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Lent Day #10
A reflection for today can be found at Ez 18:21-28; Mt 5:20-26. It's funny how many of us actually look forward to the Lenten Season to put more discipline in our lives. We believe that just maybe we can get 'back on track.' What I have realized this Lenten Season is that I definitely need assistance in these difficult times. Not only has work been quite the bear, but dealing with nursing a sick relative back to health is quite challenging and stressful. So reading along with the daily reflections and encouraging words has helped immensely in a world gone mad. However, what I had forgotten is everyday of the year, we have daily reflections we can turn to. Just because the Lenten Season ends, does not mean the Bible has to close. With some huge hurdles that have been placed before me in 2008, I believe I will be relying more on scripture and the word of God to get me through every single day. He's there for us every minute of every single day. We just have to look and ask.
Today, out of the readings and reflections, I hope that I have the courage and guts to not only admit to being a Catholic, a believer, but to be an 'active disciple' of God. I take that as putting our words into actions.
Today, I definitely did that. Walked into a chaotic work environment. However, I was recently given the directive to keep my frustrations and critiques to myself. So, from now on, I will. It goes against my beliefs not to try and make things better and more efficient. But, I have to do what I am told! I was on my best behavior. I will let everyone else buzz around crazily while I keep calm. Stay under the radar so to speak! In the midst of those days that may not have been planned very well, not gonna let it bother me anymore. The folks that caused the bad planning can fix it. This is very hard for me because I am a problem solver. I have to overlook others' shortcomings and not let them affect my beliefs and integrity, my high-spirited, faithful, positive being. I am well-loved in my circle, well-respected by everyone I have come across.
However, that said, let me go back to my original premise. I followed today's reflection. I performed as an 'active disciple' and did what God wanted me to do, not any other outside force. I must continue to do this. In the long run, it will make me a better person, a better follower of God, and healthier.
This Lent is truly a challenge. Much more so than in previous years. Ironically, I have not really set any Lenten resolutions or given up anything in particular. Yet, the injustices of daily life and just being a Catholic in such a secular, non-religious time are enough bumps in the road each day.
Just remember: God is with us every step of the way. Take a few minutes of quiet time with God each day to clear the mind, the spirit and the blemishes of the day.
Today, out of the readings and reflections, I hope that I have the courage and guts to not only admit to being a Catholic, a believer, but to be an 'active disciple' of God. I take that as putting our words into actions.
Today, I definitely did that. Walked into a chaotic work environment. However, I was recently given the directive to keep my frustrations and critiques to myself. So, from now on, I will. It goes against my beliefs not to try and make things better and more efficient. But, I have to do what I am told! I was on my best behavior. I will let everyone else buzz around crazily while I keep calm. Stay under the radar so to speak! In the midst of those days that may not have been planned very well, not gonna let it bother me anymore. The folks that caused the bad planning can fix it. This is very hard for me because I am a problem solver. I have to overlook others' shortcomings and not let them affect my beliefs and integrity, my high-spirited, faithful, positive being. I am well-loved in my circle, well-respected by everyone I have come across.
However, that said, let me go back to my original premise. I followed today's reflection. I performed as an 'active disciple' and did what God wanted me to do, not any other outside force. I must continue to do this. In the long run, it will make me a better person, a better follower of God, and healthier.
This Lent is truly a challenge. Much more so than in previous years. Ironically, I have not really set any Lenten resolutions or given up anything in particular. Yet, the injustices of daily life and just being a Catholic in such a secular, non-religious time are enough bumps in the road each day.
Just remember: God is with us every step of the way. Take a few minutes of quiet time with God each day to clear the mind, the spirit and the blemishes of the day.
Lent Day #9
Today's readings tell us that all four gospels depict the disciples leaving and going their separate ways after Jesus was arrested. Jesus was alone and abandoned in his greatest time of need. I can never imagine how you felt at that moment. However, I and most of your followers have felt and do sometimes still feel alone and abandoned. The difference being--we are not alone. You died for us to save us. When we feel abandoned, we must remember the prayer "footprints." It is at our lowest times when we must remember that you died to save us and are, more than likely, carrying us and our cross in our weakest moments.
Today was awful. I felt alone. I felt as if I could trust no one. Yet, I pressed onward because I knew you were standing next to me each step of the way.
From the very beginning of this Lenten Season, it has been a hollow feeling. It used to be in times past that you would go to the grocery store, or work, or anywhere really and see fellow Christians with a black cross on their forehead on Ash Wednesday. This year, NO ONE. Not even at work. People were telling me to clear the dirt off of my face. I don't know what that says for the news business. Maybe newzies have become work-a-holic, faithless beings who put their jobs ahead of what really matters (ok, I exaggerate in the heat of the moment....only some of them!). I was taught from day 1, God comes first. Though that is oftentimes very hard to do, I was also taught that there are 'certain' days for SURE where God comes first. I'm guessing Ash Wednesday is one of them! All I can do is stick to my convictions. Yet, I felt alone. It seems, society is definitely taking a turn for the worse at times, when it comes to humanity, integrity, and doing the right thing.
Another reflection for today comes from Est C:12, 14-16, 23-25; Mt 7:7-12. The Father always provides for us (it may not be what we 'want' but is always what we 'need'). Let's try to do something today to provide for someone else's needs.
Today was awful. I felt alone. I felt as if I could trust no one. Yet, I pressed onward because I knew you were standing next to me each step of the way.
From the very beginning of this Lenten Season, it has been a hollow feeling. It used to be in times past that you would go to the grocery store, or work, or anywhere really and see fellow Christians with a black cross on their forehead on Ash Wednesday. This year, NO ONE. Not even at work. People were telling me to clear the dirt off of my face. I don't know what that says for the news business. Maybe newzies have become work-a-holic, faithless beings who put their jobs ahead of what really matters (ok, I exaggerate in the heat of the moment....only some of them!). I was taught from day 1, God comes first. Though that is oftentimes very hard to do, I was also taught that there are 'certain' days for SURE where God comes first. I'm guessing Ash Wednesday is one of them! All I can do is stick to my convictions. Yet, I felt alone. It seems, society is definitely taking a turn for the worse at times, when it comes to humanity, integrity, and doing the right thing.
Another reflection for today comes from Est C:12, 14-16, 23-25; Mt 7:7-12. The Father always provides for us (it may not be what we 'want' but is always what we 'need'). Let's try to do something today to provide for someone else's needs.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Lent Day #8
The challenge is on and I am unsure if I am up for it. It's funny how this week has been exasperating. Yet it's an absurd thought to even compare what you went through 2000 years ago to the kind of week I am having. You were persecuted for your beliefs. You were tortured and sacrificed your life for the good of mankind. I am frustrated, annoyed, and having anxiety attacks and twitching eyes because, at times, I am dealing with lazy, uninspired individuals. However, then I have to think "God made these people. There has to be something good inside of them." Yet, it is so hard to see sometimes.
I must pull from within and ask for your help. I can not make it through by myself --Lent or no Lent. I am in no way perfect (hence, my cry for help during this most holy season). And believe it or not, there are so many followers who affect my life and my Mother's life each and every day with their selfless acts of kindness! However, my perception today --today I have run into many self-serving, pompous individuals who think they can do no wrong. Let it go, let it go my good friends tell me. It is very hard. And usually in life, whether work or play, these are the handful of individuals who are considered the "teacher's pet" and think they CAN do no wrong.
The snowball just keeps rolling down the mountain! I give 100+ percent. I do my job, and on a regular basis, do it almost flawlessly. Yet, I get hauled into the big office for things I never did, situations that were blown out of proportion, and scrutiny in a bigger scope than most people get scrutinized. I really wish it was an even playing field. I wish 'everyone' in this world was held accountable, especially for their work performance. All I can do is the best I can do and be the best I can be. I guess I can not control other folks' work ethics, dedication, devotion, multi-tasking skills, and common sense. My Mother has been an inspiration. She had to work 3 jobs at one time to take care of my sister and I. Society today has let us down. Many in my generation and younger see life totally differently than our parents' generation. It is very unfortunate. As you can see, this day, I need you MOST!
Again, this is mental anguish. Not at all what you went through 2000 years ago. However, I am having a very difficult time letting the bad judgement of people roll off my back. I am letting the laziness of others overtake my thoughts. It is a world gone mad!
Please help. Please give me the strength, the patience, the perseverence, gift of forgiveness, and the silence to bite my tongue when I want to say what is on my mind about the chaos and ridiculous antics going on all around me! I know you, God, have the final say but sometimes it is hard to hear "you'll get your reward in heaven" when others are trouncing over your good reputation and getting undeserving kudos. It just seems unfair. But who says life is fair!
Jesus, why do things like this happen to good people. Injustice is a pet peeve and I can not stand for it.
Then I become grounded. Just as I am about to give up hope, I read today's reflection and readings. "Forgive 70 times 7....turn the other cheek....do good to those who hate you."
My little black book reflection sums it up best-"try this on a small scale...the way I treat the people I work with, my willingness to 'die' when a cutting remark is made and I want to stab back."
Thank you for the guidance. This reflection will be very difficult for the duration of Lent and Life, but I have to do it. There could be huge repercussions if I do not follow your lead, follow your preaching. No matter what the simple-minded, the selfish and self-serving do to me, I have to clench my fist, bite my tongue and say "what would Jesus do?"
I must pull from within and ask for your help. I can not make it through by myself --Lent or no Lent. I am in no way perfect (hence, my cry for help during this most holy season). And believe it or not, there are so many followers who affect my life and my Mother's life each and every day with their selfless acts of kindness! However, my perception today --today I have run into many self-serving, pompous individuals who think they can do no wrong. Let it go, let it go my good friends tell me. It is very hard. And usually in life, whether work or play, these are the handful of individuals who are considered the "teacher's pet" and think they CAN do no wrong.
The snowball just keeps rolling down the mountain! I give 100+ percent. I do my job, and on a regular basis, do it almost flawlessly. Yet, I get hauled into the big office for things I never did, situations that were blown out of proportion, and scrutiny in a bigger scope than most people get scrutinized. I really wish it was an even playing field. I wish 'everyone' in this world was held accountable, especially for their work performance. All I can do is the best I can do and be the best I can be. I guess I can not control other folks' work ethics, dedication, devotion, multi-tasking skills, and common sense. My Mother has been an inspiration. She had to work 3 jobs at one time to take care of my sister and I. Society today has let us down. Many in my generation and younger see life totally differently than our parents' generation. It is very unfortunate. As you can see, this day, I need you MOST!
Again, this is mental anguish. Not at all what you went through 2000 years ago. However, I am having a very difficult time letting the bad judgement of people roll off my back. I am letting the laziness of others overtake my thoughts. It is a world gone mad!
Please help. Please give me the strength, the patience, the perseverence, gift of forgiveness, and the silence to bite my tongue when I want to say what is on my mind about the chaos and ridiculous antics going on all around me! I know you, God, have the final say but sometimes it is hard to hear "you'll get your reward in heaven" when others are trouncing over your good reputation and getting undeserving kudos. It just seems unfair. But who says life is fair!
Jesus, why do things like this happen to good people. Injustice is a pet peeve and I can not stand for it.
Then I become grounded. Just as I am about to give up hope, I read today's reflection and readings. "Forgive 70 times 7....turn the other cheek....do good to those who hate you."
My little black book reflection sums it up best-"try this on a small scale...the way I treat the people I work with, my willingness to 'die' when a cutting remark is made and I want to stab back."
Thank you for the guidance. This reflection will be very difficult for the duration of Lent and Life, but I have to do it. There could be huge repercussions if I do not follow your lead, follow your preaching. No matter what the simple-minded, the selfish and self-serving do to me, I have to clench my fist, bite my tongue and say "what would Jesus do?"
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Lent Day # 7
A little tidbit of history. I read on this date in 1931, Pope Pius XI broadcast for the first time from the Vatican. The Pope wrote the greeting himself. The message discussed peace. Peace within ourselves, peace in the world, peace with one another. Lent is or should be a time of peace. Letting oneself go to God. Let the daily hectic hassles go. Let peace resonate loudly and shine through.
Another lesson for today does not stray from the peace train theme. Be at peace with oneself and be ready for God. If we are prepared for God to visit us at anytime, we will be calm, at peace, and ready. That, too, is what the season of Lent is all about. Preparing for the Lord. Asking for forgiveness so we can be at peace with ourselves and with God.
If someone or some thing frazzling or rattling pops up today, close your eyes, take a deep breath, count to ten, and let peace surround you.
Another lesson for today does not stray from the peace train theme. Be at peace with oneself and be ready for God. If we are prepared for God to visit us at anytime, we will be calm, at peace, and ready. That, too, is what the season of Lent is all about. Preparing for the Lord. Asking for forgiveness so we can be at peace with ourselves and with God.
If someone or some thing frazzling or rattling pops up today, close your eyes, take a deep breath, count to ten, and let peace surround you.
Lent Day #6
The coldest day we have had in weeks, if not months. Sub-zero temperatures. Yet, Mom has an eye doctor appointment. So many reasons I love and adore my Mother. One major reason is her spirituality. She views every day as Lent. She has this outlook on life that God is with us every step of the way, even when in our human eyes and mind, we do not see or believe it. She sees God in everything and everyone (even the most annoying!).
The snow, off and on for much of Sunday. It stopped for a little while and then continued again starting around 2am. Then Monday morning, the world awakens to a cold, yet sunny February day! As we drive along a residential street, Mom rejoices and thanks Jesus for his beautiful artwork. The tree lawn trees are covered with a light dusting of white snow. It does look like a breathless Norman Rockwell painting.
While others traveling on their way to work may be cursing the slushy roads, the slow drivers, and the bitter cold temperatures, leave it to Mom to look up to the Heavens and thank God for his beautiful gift in the form of natural art.
I can always count on Mom to ground me and bring me back from despair, or negativity, or focus me to the important things in life.
Today, try and see life or the world through God's eyes.
The snow, off and on for much of Sunday. It stopped for a little while and then continued again starting around 2am. Then Monday morning, the world awakens to a cold, yet sunny February day! As we drive along a residential street, Mom rejoices and thanks Jesus for his beautiful artwork. The tree lawn trees are covered with a light dusting of white snow. It does look like a breathless Norman Rockwell painting.
While others traveling on their way to work may be cursing the slushy roads, the slow drivers, and the bitter cold temperatures, leave it to Mom to look up to the Heavens and thank God for his beautiful gift in the form of natural art.
I can always count on Mom to ground me and bring me back from despair, or negativity, or focus me to the important things in life.
Today, try and see life or the world through God's eyes.
Monday, February 11, 2008
1st weekend into Lent
Why is it when we do something wrong, raise our voice, or get angry at someone, it seems a thousand times worse when it occurs in the confines of the Lenten Season? Normally, when I get a little hot under the collar, I know I should take a deep breath and step back. But during the Season of Lent, it is a vicious circle. I may feel ill will toward someone and then get upset even more with myself for having those ill will feelings during Lent.
This weekend's readings show how Jesus' relationship with his father is being challenged. Jesus does not let anything come between he and his Father. Likewise, when our spirit or patience or veracity is being challenged by someone or some situation, we should not be tempted to take the easy way out. We should stay strong. Try and do the right thing, no matter how difficult.
My Pastor, as usual, gave a wonderful homily this weekend. He said if you are uncomfortable getting gifts, then Lent is THE WORST time for you. The Lenten Season is a gift from God. Everything we have is a gift from God. Jesus' birth and then his dying are gifts from God to give us life and eternity. When someone gives us a gift, sometimes we feel we have to repay them, or get them a better gift, or ask ourselves what is the reasoning behind the gift? So when we think of it, we really are in debt to God for everything he has done and continues to do for us. There is no way we can ever pay him back. However, during the Lenten Season, we can try to learn who we are, why we are here, plunge into life and try to make God proud of us. We can attempt to pay him back by using the gifts he has given us, give to others, attempt to grow closer to God. And if we are lucky, that fiesty, dedicated spirit will carry on after the Lenten Season has officially ended.
This weekend's readings show how Jesus' relationship with his father is being challenged. Jesus does not let anything come between he and his Father. Likewise, when our spirit or patience or veracity is being challenged by someone or some situation, we should not be tempted to take the easy way out. We should stay strong. Try and do the right thing, no matter how difficult.
My Pastor, as usual, gave a wonderful homily this weekend. He said if you are uncomfortable getting gifts, then Lent is THE WORST time for you. The Lenten Season is a gift from God. Everything we have is a gift from God. Jesus' birth and then his dying are gifts from God to give us life and eternity. When someone gives us a gift, sometimes we feel we have to repay them, or get them a better gift, or ask ourselves what is the reasoning behind the gift? So when we think of it, we really are in debt to God for everything he has done and continues to do for us. There is no way we can ever pay him back. However, during the Lenten Season, we can try to learn who we are, why we are here, plunge into life and try to make God proud of us. We can attempt to pay him back by using the gifts he has given us, give to others, attempt to grow closer to God. And if we are lucky, that fiesty, dedicated spirit will carry on after the Lenten Season has officially ended.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Lent day #3
So you ask, why in the heck is someone pontificating on the Lenten Season. I am attempting to share some thoughts about this spiritual season. I think taking a slice of each day reflecting on the whirlwind moments we call life (at the very beginning or as we lay our head down on the pillow) is more therapeutic for me rather than the intrigued reader. It's more "my time" away from the phones, the television, the scanners, and the myriad of responsibilities at hand.
I read something very interesting today. I read the first week of Lent has been called "The Porch of Lent." I find this quite the interesting way to portray this holy time. Lent is the entryway allowing us into the season. It ushers in the forty-plus day penance season.
Someone asked me today "what did you give up?" I told them giving something up is less important to me than attempting to act the christian-way every step of the way.
However, in the next breath, I lambasted someone for asking me "are we in lent? We're not supposed to eat meat today, right?" My response back was " if you have to ask if it is Lent and you don't know you are supposed to abstain from meat on Friday's in Lent, then why the heck are you even trying to adhere to this doctrine?" I never said I was perfect. However, it is maddening that some people proclaim they are something or someone and either don't know why they are doing it, are just going through the motions, or are trying to put on airs.
Just when I get in one of these 'losing hope modes,' I see a blatant sign that God means business and is in total control. I know they happen to everyone but it is one's willingness and openness to recognize the signs. Today as I was driving to work, stopped at a light downtown, DMB came on the radio. 'The Space Between' blaring from the speakers. Just as the line 'the wicked lies we tell' and specifically the word 'wicked' rang out, I turned my head a little to the left and saw the big ole trailer for the Broadway Musical WICKED parked along Chester Avenue. Now, THAT, to me is a sign. A 'get conked on the head' sign that no matter what I do, there is someone up there in control driving the bus!
Don't give up hope in the good things in life. They are there. You just have to look for them. And I've learned not to say "when so and so gets better" or "when I get a little more money" because those things may never happen. I tend to enjoy the moment. Enjoy what I have currently and cherish the company surrounding me at the time! Looks like we made it through day three. Take a deep breath, and spend some quiet time with your higher being.
I read something very interesting today. I read the first week of Lent has been called "The Porch of Lent." I find this quite the interesting way to portray this holy time. Lent is the entryway allowing us into the season. It ushers in the forty-plus day penance season.
Someone asked me today "what did you give up?" I told them giving something up is less important to me than attempting to act the christian-way every step of the way.
However, in the next breath, I lambasted someone for asking me "are we in lent? We're not supposed to eat meat today, right?" My response back was " if you have to ask if it is Lent and you don't know you are supposed to abstain from meat on Friday's in Lent, then why the heck are you even trying to adhere to this doctrine?" I never said I was perfect. However, it is maddening that some people proclaim they are something or someone and either don't know why they are doing it, are just going through the motions, or are trying to put on airs.
Just when I get in one of these 'losing hope modes,' I see a blatant sign that God means business and is in total control. I know they happen to everyone but it is one's willingness and openness to recognize the signs. Today as I was driving to work, stopped at a light downtown, DMB came on the radio. 'The Space Between' blaring from the speakers. Just as the line 'the wicked lies we tell' and specifically the word 'wicked' rang out, I turned my head a little to the left and saw the big ole trailer for the Broadway Musical WICKED parked along Chester Avenue. Now, THAT, to me is a sign. A 'get conked on the head' sign that no matter what I do, there is someone up there in control driving the bus!
Don't give up hope in the good things in life. They are there. You just have to look for them. And I've learned not to say "when so and so gets better" or "when I get a little more money" because those things may never happen. I tend to enjoy the moment. Enjoy what I have currently and cherish the company surrounding me at the time! Looks like we made it through day three. Take a deep breath, and spend some quiet time with your higher being.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Lent day #2
Amazingly, I made it through day #1 unscathed. Actually, a tremendous start. First of all, I found it was not difficult at all to fast for over 24 hours. Ironically, my first entry talked about clearing the clutter yet I was so busy on Ash Wednesday that I did not even have time to think about eating. Lesson learned: when we dwell on something, it becomes an obsession. When we do not ever think about it, no problem. Focussing on my obligations, attending Ash Wednesday Mass with Mom and singing the Children's Mass THEN going to work, I did not eat one item for over 24 hours (except water). Now, if I can only convince myself to do that every day, maybe I will fit into a slimming dress for my niece's wedding!
There were many small miracles during day #1. Raising my voice to God was a gift in itself. Seeing our pastor, who had been in the hospital having surgery, sitting on the altar again was filled with emotion. His homily brought goose bumps. I have to remember to get a copy so I can share some of his thoughts. Then hearing the elementary kids speak so kindly to my Mother, who used to be the Parish Secretary. She had been ill for a while but is making a remarkable comeback. The kids were overjoyed to see her at Mass, reminded her that they made cards for her and told her they loved her. That sequence of events makes you realize there IS a God and he does listen and love us.
Day 2 focuses on what we can cut out of our busy, daily lives OR what we can add. The readings for today are Dt 30:15-20; Lk 9:22-25. Hopefully we can all take a few moments to reflect on these readings or just close our eyes for a few moments and block out the chaos of the day.
There were many small miracles during day #1. Raising my voice to God was a gift in itself. Seeing our pastor, who had been in the hospital having surgery, sitting on the altar again was filled with emotion. His homily brought goose bumps. I have to remember to get a copy so I can share some of his thoughts. Then hearing the elementary kids speak so kindly to my Mother, who used to be the Parish Secretary. She had been ill for a while but is making a remarkable comeback. The kids were overjoyed to see her at Mass, reminded her that they made cards for her and told her they loved her. That sequence of events makes you realize there IS a God and he does listen and love us.
Day 2 focuses on what we can cut out of our busy, daily lives OR what we can add. The readings for today are Dt 30:15-20; Lk 9:22-25. Hopefully we can all take a few moments to reflect on these readings or just close our eyes for a few moments and block out the chaos of the day.
Lent begins
February 6, 2008 Ash Wednesday is upon us. It feels like slow motion from when 2008 began, yet already the Lenten season. At times life feels like one big hallucination. My hope, to share uplifting, soul searching thoughts on my work website each day under some type of religion or "faces of faith" section. However, that ball is rolling at a snail's pace. So, voila! Here is my start up version of what hopefully will be an eye-opening experience for myself as well as anyone else who chooses to venture onto my blog. For those of you interested in clearing the clutter from your lives, log onto http://www.americancatholic.org/. The St Anthony Messenger Press has a wonderful day-by-day spiritual walk for followers interested in coming up for air every once in a while. Today's topic is clearing the clutter. One way to do so is to take time to pray or just reflect away from the craziness of life.
Now for those of you who think I am some holy roller type, well I am not. I am just trying to keep the insanity from overtaking my hectic, fast-paced life. One way I personally stay sane and in moderate control is through my faith life, my religious upbringing, and my music. For some reason, this grounds me and keeps me from going completely looney! I'm sure it is not for everyone, but for me, it works. I hear folks looking for some gigantic miracle to konk them on the head. Well, it is the small miracles in life that get us through. My last Friday started off pretty rotten. It was filled with rushing around, getting stuck in traffic, dealing with difficult people. And this is all before I ventured into my "real paying job." Yet when I walked into work, what do my wondering eyes see but Midge, the Geauga County Sheriff K-9 Dog. I took this as a sign from God to calm down, take a deep breath, and forget the crazy day thus far. Being a huge dog lover, I let all the frustrations exit my mind and let soothing, peaceful thoughts enter.
Lent is a time for us to try extremely hard to do just that. Let the small or big annoyances in life go and focus on what is real, what is true, what really matters most in our lives. Each one of us has something different that is near and dear to us. Let us look deep within, find it, and focus.
This blogging is fun, yet very thought provoking and exhausting. I hope I did not bore everyone with my first try at "blogging fun." I'm turning off the computer and hoping to come back tomorrow with some more thought provoking or just whimsical anecdotes to help us all (especially me) try to make it through the 2008 Lenten Season without totally blowing it. Come Easter Sunday, I hope I truly can look back and say I have accomplished SOMETHING useful for the great man above!
Now for those of you who think I am some holy roller type, well I am not. I am just trying to keep the insanity from overtaking my hectic, fast-paced life. One way I personally stay sane and in moderate control is through my faith life, my religious upbringing, and my music. For some reason, this grounds me and keeps me from going completely looney! I'm sure it is not for everyone, but for me, it works. I hear folks looking for some gigantic miracle to konk them on the head. Well, it is the small miracles in life that get us through. My last Friday started off pretty rotten. It was filled with rushing around, getting stuck in traffic, dealing with difficult people. And this is all before I ventured into my "real paying job." Yet when I walked into work, what do my wondering eyes see but Midge, the Geauga County Sheriff K-9 Dog. I took this as a sign from God to calm down, take a deep breath, and forget the crazy day thus far. Being a huge dog lover, I let all the frustrations exit my mind and let soothing, peaceful thoughts enter.
Lent is a time for us to try extremely hard to do just that. Let the small or big annoyances in life go and focus on what is real, what is true, what really matters most in our lives. Each one of us has something different that is near and dear to us. Let us look deep within, find it, and focus.
This blogging is fun, yet very thought provoking and exhausting. I hope I did not bore everyone with my first try at "blogging fun." I'm turning off the computer and hoping to come back tomorrow with some more thought provoking or just whimsical anecdotes to help us all (especially me) try to make it through the 2008 Lenten Season without totally blowing it. Come Easter Sunday, I hope I truly can look back and say I have accomplished SOMETHING useful for the great man above!
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