I don't dwell on things since Mom's death but many 'things' just crop into my life.
I knew that each day was going to consist of many 'firsts.'
Well, here's another one.
I was asked to drive one of our visiting priests to another church for a mass he was saying. Gladly!
It not only gave me a chance to get to know him better, do a good deed, but attend morning mass to start the day off properly. And it did! What a wonderful way to begin the day but with the Lord.
I wound up driving past the dialysis center Mom used to attend 3 times a week. This is the 1st time I've been back over there since Mom died.
An eye opener in many respects. Not only just being over there, but Mom and I would keep tabs on the landmarks on either side of the CDC. On the right, condos were going up. Well, they are now up. I can hear what Mom would be saying right now!
To the left, a new Speech and Hearing Center, which took the longest time to come to fruition. We'd drive by each day and Mom would comment on each little new nuance! One day we actually saw people inside and she was overjoyed. Now, it is totally complete.
It's hard to explain to another soul what I am going through. I know there are many other people on this earth who also lost Mom and I do not doubt they are grieving horribly. Every single day people I see from our church, our neighborhood and even my work tell me how much they miss Mom. But there was no one in this world who loved Mom more, spent as much time with her, and now, is just trying to get through each day and piece together a life left behind.
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