Lent Day #37

What started as a week with potential has been road block after road block. After the big blizzard, today is the first day that we can easily negotiate around this neighborhood. A few days ago I was trapped in our driveway for nearly a half hour waiting for the school kids and their parents to clear out of the small burrowed lane. Then yesterday, the Sears representative never showed during his allotted window. Our doctor never called back with pressing information. Dealing with various work issues has been like climbing Mt Everest! It has been disappointment after disappointment. I desperately need a dose of patience today.

I have lost faith in mankind. I rely on others to do their jobs. I count on others to be responsible. I expect others to be truthful. I can not tolerate others who have the word laziness in their vocabulary. These are the roadblocks I have run into all week long.

Today's reflection is perfect. Gn 17:3-9; Jn 8:51-59. The Saint Anthony Messenger Press speaks of Jesus and how He expresses the following saying: 'whoever keeps my word is a true child of Abraham.' I need to figure out how I can keep God's word and not let him down. Yet, it is so hard when it appears that others around me are going back on their promises to God. Then I step back, take a deep breath and realize, I can not judge anyone. I am seeing surface actions. I have no idea what is happening inside someone's heart and mind. I need to worry about me and me alone. God will handle the rest. Yet it is hard. Especially when others let me down making my journey even harder than it is.

I'm in the home stretch. I must focus. Focus on making this Lent meaningful and successful in the objectives that I jotted down weeks ago.