The ‘weekend’ as we once knew it is on the verge of becoming extinct.
You would work hard to get to Friday, which was quite the welcome site. At quitting time on Friday, a big sigh of relief for two days of reckless abandon and much needed sleep.
Those days are gone. In the TV business, there is no such thing as a ‘regular shift.’ So for many people, ‘Friday’ is not really ‘Friday.’
Whenever your ‘weekend’ may fall, there are chores, responsibilities, required engagements, and the list of mounting duties (which never gets smaller, only multiplies)!
Now, even though you may be able to complete some of the tasks at hand during the ‘work week’ there are so many lingering jobs left, the days termed ‘weekend’ are just two more consecutive days to arise at the break of dawn, continue where you left off on a task the previous day or night and trudge forward.
The novelty of visiting family members, taking a weekend trip, girls night out, or sleeping until you wake up are only memories we glance at in our rear view mirror.
The next time you come across what looks like a ‘weekend,’ tread lightly!
Monday, March 31, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
You can't live with 'em, you can't live without 'em
Cars and men. Or men and cars. Which ever you deem more important at the time. You can't live with 'em and then you can't live without 'em. They cause much happiness at times and then so much frustration. Yet, both totally necessary.
Right now, I am striking out on both fronts!
I have been dealing with car issues for a while. My car is great! It's my baby that is now 14 years old. However, along the way it got mixed up with the wrong crowd. The big chain fixer uppers ruined her. It's better to find a mom and pop joint or little family owned auto body shop.
Well, I believe I have found the right place. I just hope it's not too late.
For the longest time the chains and the dealership could not figure out WHY my baby was not accelerating properly. A friend from work put me on to a great little shop in the Heights. They are friendly, listen to your problem and turn no stone unturned. However, because no one could find the problem for so long, I think deeper issues developed.
It pains me to think that I may have to give her up soon. There is virtually nothing wrong with the car except for some scratches from my battle with the parking garage barrier (I lost) and a faulty CD player. Oh, yea, and when you turn the ignition it needs a lot of pumping up to get her going. But, everything else is perfect. I'm at my wits end.
It's been car swapping week. I took my car in and they did some work. When I picked her up, I dropped off Mom's for a safety check. They loved her car. Could not say enough nice things about it. Then since my little bugger was still acting up, Scott said I could 'swap them out' again and they would take an in depth look as to why the little girl was huffing and puffing.
Only time will tell if my Riv has a little supercharged turbo life left inside of her or if it's time for the big car lot in the sky?!?!
Right now, I am striking out on both fronts!
I have been dealing with car issues for a while. My car is great! It's my baby that is now 14 years old. However, along the way it got mixed up with the wrong crowd. The big chain fixer uppers ruined her. It's better to find a mom and pop joint or little family owned auto body shop.
Well, I believe I have found the right place. I just hope it's not too late.
For the longest time the chains and the dealership could not figure out WHY my baby was not accelerating properly. A friend from work put me on to a great little shop in the Heights. They are friendly, listen to your problem and turn no stone unturned. However, because no one could find the problem for so long, I think deeper issues developed.
It pains me to think that I may have to give her up soon. There is virtually nothing wrong with the car except for some scratches from my battle with the parking garage barrier (I lost) and a faulty CD player. Oh, yea, and when you turn the ignition it needs a lot of pumping up to get her going. But, everything else is perfect. I'm at my wits end.
It's been car swapping week. I took my car in and they did some work. When I picked her up, I dropped off Mom's for a safety check. They loved her car. Could not say enough nice things about it. Then since my little bugger was still acting up, Scott said I could 'swap them out' again and they would take an in depth look as to why the little girl was huffing and puffing.
Only time will tell if my Riv has a little supercharged turbo life left inside of her or if it's time for the big car lot in the sky?!?!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Back timing my life
In television news, producers 'back time a show.' There is a hard start time and a hard out time given to them. You do not want to step on either of these two times if you know what's good for you. The last thing you want to do is miff Dr. Phil or Brian Williams!
Then the producer sandwiches in their stories, promos, teases, commercials, sports, weather, etc., and hope to end their show right on time!
Sounds easy, but trust me, sometimes its hard to do depending on the reading swiftness or slowness of a news anchor, breaking news, spontaneity of a live shot, the list is endless.
On a daily basis, I feel like I am back timing my life. There are certain things I MUST fit in and tend to every day. I make a list of things to do. At the end of the day, though exhausted, I've only crossed off a few things on my original list...but have completed a myriad of unexpected, non-scripted actions and requests thrown my way through the course of the day.
People say, 'sit back, take it easy, and relax.' Or 'don't take on so much.' The funny thing is that NO is a very prevalent part of my vocabulary these days. I have not taken on too much. It's just the normal daily responsibilities that creep up and pounce and those 'unexpected emergencies' that really sock you!
There are days when I literally do not have a minute to spare. It is all timed out perfectly. I will get up at this time, normal morning drill, shower at this time and the shower can not go over 8 minutes, etc., etc. It's amazing how if one action is not timed perfectly and kept on schedule, my tower of cards comes tumbling down!
I am in the midst of a 'make it or break it week." On one hand, I LOVE these deadline weeks because they keep me on my toes and accomplish so much. On the other hand, there is absolutely no time to come up for air, no room for error.
Looking into my crystal ball, It would be nice to have everything on my long laundry list crossed off by the time "The Iron Chef" comes on Sunday night so I can kick back, relax and rev up for yet another 'make it or break it week!'
Then the producer sandwiches in their stories, promos, teases, commercials, sports, weather, etc., and hope to end their show right on time!
Sounds easy, but trust me, sometimes its hard to do depending on the reading swiftness or slowness of a news anchor, breaking news, spontaneity of a live shot, the list is endless.
On a daily basis, I feel like I am back timing my life. There are certain things I MUST fit in and tend to every day. I make a list of things to do. At the end of the day, though exhausted, I've only crossed off a few things on my original list...but have completed a myriad of unexpected, non-scripted actions and requests thrown my way through the course of the day.
People say, 'sit back, take it easy, and relax.' Or 'don't take on so much.' The funny thing is that NO is a very prevalent part of my vocabulary these days. I have not taken on too much. It's just the normal daily responsibilities that creep up and pounce and those 'unexpected emergencies' that really sock you!
There are days when I literally do not have a minute to spare. It is all timed out perfectly. I will get up at this time, normal morning drill, shower at this time and the shower can not go over 8 minutes, etc., etc. It's amazing how if one action is not timed perfectly and kept on schedule, my tower of cards comes tumbling down!
I am in the midst of a 'make it or break it week." On one hand, I LOVE these deadline weeks because they keep me on my toes and accomplish so much. On the other hand, there is absolutely no time to come up for air, no room for error.
Looking into my crystal ball, It would be nice to have everything on my long laundry list crossed off by the time "The Iron Chef" comes on Sunday night so I can kick back, relax and rev up for yet another 'make it or break it week!'
Monday, March 24, 2008
The Lord has Risen
The stone has been moved. The tomb is empty.
Our Lenten preparation has ushered in the most holiest of high holy days for Christians around the world.
Jesus Christ has risen today.
Jesus could have exited the tomb whether the stone was moved or remained in place. However, 'we' needed a concrete sign. 'Our heavy stone' being moved symbolizes the crosses we bear, the burdens we place upon ourselves, any worries lingering and feuds we have brewing with others.
They are all lifted with the risen Lord.
Our sins have been forgiven. God will continuously forgive us, grant mercy upon us and ultimately greet us with open arms when we die.
Overall, for me, a very successful Lenten Season. Looking back, I prayed more, was at peace, rarely had road rage, surrounded by daily gifts from God the Father. I offered up my gifts to the Lord. I realized the gifts God has given to me and used them to praise him. We used our gift of song at all of the Easter Masses. It was my pleasure to lift up my voice and praise you with my whole heart and soul. We decorated the most beautiful church in the diocese. We donated our time to make gifts for the kids of our parish. None ever a burden but a gift we wanted to gladly give to God and our fellow Christians.
The harder task is at hand. Can I keep up the very successful practices put into place during the Lenten Season? Only time will tell. I know one thing for sure. I definitely need you, God, every single step of the way to grant me the grace, peace of mind, patience, strength, endurance, perseverance, love and kindness toward others, and the gift of forgiveness toward others and myself.
I thank you very much for giving me the quality time I spent this weekend with Mother and the rest of my family. Time is precious. We never know what will happen in the future, but the time we spent together this weekend is a gift only God can offer. Thank you.
Our Lenten preparation has ushered in the most holiest of high holy days for Christians around the world.
Jesus Christ has risen today.
Jesus could have exited the tomb whether the stone was moved or remained in place. However, 'we' needed a concrete sign. 'Our heavy stone' being moved symbolizes the crosses we bear, the burdens we place upon ourselves, any worries lingering and feuds we have brewing with others.
They are all lifted with the risen Lord.
Our sins have been forgiven. God will continuously forgive us, grant mercy upon us and ultimately greet us with open arms when we die.
Overall, for me, a very successful Lenten Season. Looking back, I prayed more, was at peace, rarely had road rage, surrounded by daily gifts from God the Father. I offered up my gifts to the Lord. I realized the gifts God has given to me and used them to praise him. We used our gift of song at all of the Easter Masses. It was my pleasure to lift up my voice and praise you with my whole heart and soul. We decorated the most beautiful church in the diocese. We donated our time to make gifts for the kids of our parish. None ever a burden but a gift we wanted to gladly give to God and our fellow Christians.
The harder task is at hand. Can I keep up the very successful practices put into place during the Lenten Season? Only time will tell. I know one thing for sure. I definitely need you, God, every single step of the way to grant me the grace, peace of mind, patience, strength, endurance, perseverance, love and kindness toward others, and the gift of forgiveness toward others and myself.
I thank you very much for giving me the quality time I spent this weekend with Mother and the rest of my family. Time is precious. We never know what will happen in the future, but the time we spent together this weekend is a gift only God can offer. Thank you.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Good Friday
Life is so very precious. One moment the Apostles were breaking bread with Jesus Christ enjoying the moment, thinking they were on the top of the world. The next, eleven of them were blindsided by a single event that would change history forever.
I understand that 'what happened' was 'meant to happen.' However, it's a great lesson to reflect upon on a daily basis.
So many times you hear how a car accident changed a family's life forever in just a split second....or one minute a straight A student is on top of the world looking forward to graduation and their acceptance to Hiram or Boston College and the next moment they are dead, victim of being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
I have so much to be thankful for. I spent Good Friday cooking our traditional Easter delicacies with my Mother, who has been recovering from a grave illness. She was not feeling very well today but was stronger than I have seen her in weeks. I've learned to enjoy the moment because it may be gone in a heart beat (or lack of heart beat). In past years, I was always rushing, rushing, rushing to get onto the next event, the next concert, the next 'whatever.' There is so much in life I really don't remember, buzzing through it so quickly.
However, today, I live in the minute. I enjoy each moment in time and cherish the memories made each day with friends and family.
We must have faith in God that slow and steady wins the race. If we follow His lead, try to lead good lives, we will ultimately spend the rest of our life with God, Jesus Christ, and all of our family and friends who meant so much to us in our earthly life.
Spend some time reflecting on lessons learned this Lenten Season and prepare for the coming of Jesus Christ in two days.
I understand that 'what happened' was 'meant to happen.' However, it's a great lesson to reflect upon on a daily basis.
So many times you hear how a car accident changed a family's life forever in just a split second....or one minute a straight A student is on top of the world looking forward to graduation and their acceptance to Hiram or Boston College and the next moment they are dead, victim of being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
I have so much to be thankful for. I spent Good Friday cooking our traditional Easter delicacies with my Mother, who has been recovering from a grave illness. She was not feeling very well today but was stronger than I have seen her in weeks. I've learned to enjoy the moment because it may be gone in a heart beat (or lack of heart beat). In past years, I was always rushing, rushing, rushing to get onto the next event, the next concert, the next 'whatever.' There is so much in life I really don't remember, buzzing through it so quickly.
However, today, I live in the minute. I enjoy each moment in time and cherish the memories made each day with friends and family.
We must have faith in God that slow and steady wins the race. If we follow His lead, try to lead good lives, we will ultimately spend the rest of our life with God, Jesus Christ, and all of our family and friends who meant so much to us in our earthly life.
Spend some time reflecting on lessons learned this Lenten Season and prepare for the coming of Jesus Christ in two days.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Lent Day #44
It's truly amazing how a song, or a moment, or something very ordinary in the course of a day can trigger a memory.
We received our Holy Week Schedule in the mail a few days ago. As my Mother glanced over the list of week-long events, she started to cry. Now, our Pastor almost cried over the letter because they were sent almost three weeks ago and no one received them until a few days ago!
However, Mom was teary-eyed because reading the Holy Thursday schedule brought back memories of her brother, Tom. She told me that she and Uncle Tommy would attend the Holy Thursday service and then pray for an hour during adoration.
Uncle Tommy and Aunt Lucy have passed, but as you can see, their memories continue to live on in all of our hearts.
Even though I rarely show emotion in the presence of family members, I am a blithering fool. I am very emotional, which I believe I get from my Mother. I cherish family tradition, which in today's busy world, is almost extinct.
I do thank you, God, for allowing me to see you in every day occurrences. I am blessed that I have my Mother's faith. I don't need a life altering miracle like Jesus changing the water to wine. I see you and feel your gentle hand in a song that comes on the radio, in an elderly woman maneuvering her wheel chair while crossing the street, in a puppy that brings a huge smile to a small child, or a little boy who was not expected to live but now belongs to a church for the deaf and signs in the choir. I see you in my day-to-day life and thank you thank you thank you!
I could not function without your guidance and love.
I pray that You always give me the memories of what you did for me, Jesus, especially your dying on the cross. I owe my life to you.
We received our Holy Week Schedule in the mail a few days ago. As my Mother glanced over the list of week-long events, she started to cry. Now, our Pastor almost cried over the letter because they were sent almost three weeks ago and no one received them until a few days ago!
However, Mom was teary-eyed because reading the Holy Thursday schedule brought back memories of her brother, Tom. She told me that she and Uncle Tommy would attend the Holy Thursday service and then pray for an hour during adoration.
Uncle Tommy and Aunt Lucy have passed, but as you can see, their memories continue to live on in all of our hearts.
Even though I rarely show emotion in the presence of family members, I am a blithering fool. I am very emotional, which I believe I get from my Mother. I cherish family tradition, which in today's busy world, is almost extinct.
I do thank you, God, for allowing me to see you in every day occurrences. I am blessed that I have my Mother's faith. I don't need a life altering miracle like Jesus changing the water to wine. I see you and feel your gentle hand in a song that comes on the radio, in an elderly woman maneuvering her wheel chair while crossing the street, in a puppy that brings a huge smile to a small child, or a little boy who was not expected to live but now belongs to a church for the deaf and signs in the choir. I see you in my day-to-day life and thank you thank you thank you!
I could not function without your guidance and love.
I pray that You always give me the memories of what you did for me, Jesus, especially your dying on the cross. I owe my life to you.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Lent Day #43
Is 50:4-9; Mt 26:14-25
Finally, I found something during the Lenten Reflections that I actually do on a regular basis! It's never too late. Today's reflection talks about speaking with God first thing every morning before we start our day. I could not make it through the day without speaking to Him first thing, continuously throughout the day and then when I lay my head down to rest at the end of a very hectic day.
We are about to embark on the most holiest time of our religion. How could we not speak with Jesus and thank him for what he did for us. We have been reliving each step Jesus took, methodically, day by day, minute by minute. It's heart-wrenching and painful to see how he received every beating mark, every mark from his crown of thorns, and to see his blood drop to the ground slowly taking the life out of Him.
I can not even imagine going through what He endured. I can not fathom ever being able to repay or thank Him for the gift of His life.
Every time we read a lesson, there is something new that seems to jump out. It is interesting to compare the four writers' works and find the differences and similarities.
I thank you for giving me life. That is why I must thank you and pray to you as the first action of my day, my existence.
Finally, I found something during the Lenten Reflections that I actually do on a regular basis! It's never too late. Today's reflection talks about speaking with God first thing every morning before we start our day. I could not make it through the day without speaking to Him first thing, continuously throughout the day and then when I lay my head down to rest at the end of a very hectic day.
We are about to embark on the most holiest time of our religion. How could we not speak with Jesus and thank him for what he did for us. We have been reliving each step Jesus took, methodically, day by day, minute by minute. It's heart-wrenching and painful to see how he received every beating mark, every mark from his crown of thorns, and to see his blood drop to the ground slowly taking the life out of Him.
I can not even imagine going through what He endured. I can not fathom ever being able to repay or thank Him for the gift of His life.
Every time we read a lesson, there is something new that seems to jump out. It is interesting to compare the four writers' works and find the differences and similarities.
I thank you for giving me life. That is why I must thank you and pray to you as the first action of my day, my existence.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Lent Day #42
Is 49:1-6; Jn 13:21-33, 36-38
This entire week, the readings go through every single detail leading up to and including the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John may have slightly different renditions at times, but they all lead to the same end.
Each narrative is quite pictorial. Each story emits emotions from those listening. If you don't feel the message, well, you'll really never get the lesson.
Peter told Jesus he would never abandon him. Never. Yet ultimately, he denied Jesus three times. When he realized Jesus revelation came true, he was truly sorry. He knew he sinned.
We may be weak, but this is the whole reason Jesus died on the cross--to save us from our sins.
We are finite. Jesus is infinite. I can not grasp the concept that no matter how many times I sin, Jesus can forgive me and continue loving me unconditionally. Oftentimes, I can NOT forgive myself. I have many regrets and beat myself up, sometimes for the silliest of things.
Jesus can.
I am grateful and humbled.
This entire week, the readings go through every single detail leading up to and including the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John may have slightly different renditions at times, but they all lead to the same end.
Each narrative is quite pictorial. Each story emits emotions from those listening. If you don't feel the message, well, you'll really never get the lesson.
Peter told Jesus he would never abandon him. Never. Yet ultimately, he denied Jesus three times. When he realized Jesus revelation came true, he was truly sorry. He knew he sinned.
We may be weak, but this is the whole reason Jesus died on the cross--to save us from our sins.
We are finite. Jesus is infinite. I can not grasp the concept that no matter how many times I sin, Jesus can forgive me and continue loving me unconditionally. Oftentimes, I can NOT forgive myself. I have many regrets and beat myself up, sometimes for the silliest of things.
Jesus can.
I am grateful and humbled.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Lent Day #41
This is the final week before Easter Sunday. We started out strong with an idea of what we wanted to accomplish this Lenten Season. We can not look back. If, by chance, we have not accomplished all of our goals or intentions, it's not too late but it's also time to continue looking forward to Holy Week and beyond.
Now, we must not kick ourselves for failed efforts or goals that went awry. We must focus this week on God's love for us. He loved us so much, he gave his only son. We see God's unconditional love through Jesus' Passion, death, and resurrection.
How and how much do I show my love for God? And when I do, is it genuine? I'd like to think it is. I would not be here without Him and owe everything I have to Him!
I pray this week that even though the season of Lent is coming to a close, it will continue indefinitely. You will give me the strength to continue reading your word, carrying out the word and trying to live as close as possible to your example.
Spend some quiet time alone praying for God's graces.
Now, we must not kick ourselves for failed efforts or goals that went awry. We must focus this week on God's love for us. He loved us so much, he gave his only son. We see God's unconditional love through Jesus' Passion, death, and resurrection.
How and how much do I show my love for God? And when I do, is it genuine? I'd like to think it is. I would not be here without Him and owe everything I have to Him!
I pray this week that even though the season of Lent is coming to a close, it will continue indefinitely. You will give me the strength to continue reading your word, carrying out the word and trying to live as close as possible to your example.
Spend some quiet time alone praying for God's graces.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Palm Sunday
“Lord, I am not worthy to receive You, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.”
No matter how hard I try every day to do your will, each weekend, the above declaration rings true.
‘The Passion’ leading into Easter Sunday succinctly depicts Jesus’ mission on earth. He was sinless and innocent but still suffered. He was perfection yet betrayed, mocked, hated, and ultimately crucified for His beliefs and teachings. If someone so sinless was hit with such horrible attacks, then I know I am in for a doozy!
There are two very telling happenings in today’s reading. Jesus knew what was going to happen to him. He knew who his betrayer was and how this was going to play out. His betrayer was one of his “own followers.” The sign for the guards to take Jesus into custody, was ironically, a kiss. Judas greeted Jesus with a kiss and embrace. Jesus ultimately lost his life. Please give me the strength to ask for your forgiveness when I have wronged someone. And give me patience and the gift to forgive when I feel I have been betrayed, especially by those closest to me.
When I am in the midst of unreasonable, selfish, disciples with their own agendas, help me turn the other cheek and walk away.
Help me try to overlook lies directed at or about me. I really need your help on this one. It seems so petty to be hurt by such occurrences in the light of your greatest gift to us all, dying on the cross to save us. However, I am human. It recently happened where someone said “we’re doing this for your own good” without really asking me my opinion "of my own good!" I love when people sugarcoat and spin a situation to make it look as if they are doing you a favor. Honestly, Jesus, you are the only one who knows what is good for me. You know my thresh hold, my strength, what is in my heart and mind, and what is best for me.
A short time later they admitted the real reason...it was not for "my own good," it was because 25 minutes was too far to schlep to celebrate a yearly tradition...particularly for one of the individuals involved...
It’s times like these when I need you most to give me the strength to forgive, forget and move on.
The second telling line in today’s reading: “this night all of you will have your faith in me shaken.”
Oh, that happens on a daily basis. Sometimes because of my own weaknesses but often because those in my life let me down. I ring my hands and scratch my head on why this world has become so self centered and “me, me, me” driven.
When Mom says “I want a decaf coffee” and someone else says, “oh no, you don’t. You have to try this new tea.” I scratch my head?!?!?
A group of us were out for a relative’s birthday dinner. Mom, who almost passed away three times over the last few years, is just ecstatic to be alive and cherishes any time spent with family members during these busy times. A very spiritual woman, she inquired if we could say grace, in thanks of the family being together. She was met with an adamant “no.” I was shocked. First, that such a terse response was administered to the Matriarch of this family. Second, that someone is so insecure with themselves or their faith, they were unwilling to say thanks to God in public. Our “faith was definitely shaken” by this sequence of events.
Keep turning your cheek, seven times or seven x seventy times. But I have not given up hope that one day society will revert back to thinking of others first. One day there will be those that make sacrifices again for others out of sheer respect and love. There are those that will be persecuted by doing God’s will, and will not run from it. And Mom and I will not feel like we are outcasts when trying to do the right thing, be who we are, and follow Jesus Christ.
Through it all, a peaceful calm hits. I actually do see the light at the end of the tunnel. Seeing Mom worshipping at Mass. Hearing David’s lovely rendition of ‘Wondrous Love’ on the Piano. Speaking with Uncle Sam, Mike and Anna, Katie and Johnny in the congregation, I know there are still loving people around who put God and others first! And who love me and Mom!
I received a wonderful note today from my dearest childhood friend, just when I needed it most. Jesus, you always amaze me. When I need you most, you DO let the signs shine through. You show love and compassion.
I will continue to strive to make my existence on this earth worthy of your love and forgiveness!
No matter how hard I try every day to do your will, each weekend, the above declaration rings true.
‘The Passion’ leading into Easter Sunday succinctly depicts Jesus’ mission on earth. He was sinless and innocent but still suffered. He was perfection yet betrayed, mocked, hated, and ultimately crucified for His beliefs and teachings. If someone so sinless was hit with such horrible attacks, then I know I am in for a doozy!
There are two very telling happenings in today’s reading. Jesus knew what was going to happen to him. He knew who his betrayer was and how this was going to play out. His betrayer was one of his “own followers.” The sign for the guards to take Jesus into custody, was ironically, a kiss. Judas greeted Jesus with a kiss and embrace. Jesus ultimately lost his life. Please give me the strength to ask for your forgiveness when I have wronged someone. And give me patience and the gift to forgive when I feel I have been betrayed, especially by those closest to me.
When I am in the midst of unreasonable, selfish, disciples with their own agendas, help me turn the other cheek and walk away.
Help me try to overlook lies directed at or about me. I really need your help on this one. It seems so petty to be hurt by such occurrences in the light of your greatest gift to us all, dying on the cross to save us. However, I am human. It recently happened where someone said “we’re doing this for your own good” without really asking me my opinion "of my own good!" I love when people sugarcoat and spin a situation to make it look as if they are doing you a favor. Honestly, Jesus, you are the only one who knows what is good for me. You know my thresh hold, my strength, what is in my heart and mind, and what is best for me.
A short time later they admitted the real reason...it was not for "my own good," it was because 25 minutes was too far to schlep to celebrate a yearly tradition...particularly for one of the individuals involved...
It’s times like these when I need you most to give me the strength to forgive, forget and move on.
The second telling line in today’s reading: “this night all of you will have your faith in me shaken.”
Oh, that happens on a daily basis. Sometimes because of my own weaknesses but often because those in my life let me down. I ring my hands and scratch my head on why this world has become so self centered and “me, me, me” driven.
When Mom says “I want a decaf coffee” and someone else says, “oh no, you don’t. You have to try this new tea.” I scratch my head?!?!?
A group of us were out for a relative’s birthday dinner. Mom, who almost passed away three times over the last few years, is just ecstatic to be alive and cherishes any time spent with family members during these busy times. A very spiritual woman, she inquired if we could say grace, in thanks of the family being together. She was met with an adamant “no.” I was shocked. First, that such a terse response was administered to the Matriarch of this family. Second, that someone is so insecure with themselves or their faith, they were unwilling to say thanks to God in public. Our “faith was definitely shaken” by this sequence of events.
Keep turning your cheek, seven times or seven x seventy times. But I have not given up hope that one day society will revert back to thinking of others first. One day there will be those that make sacrifices again for others out of sheer respect and love. There are those that will be persecuted by doing God’s will, and will not run from it. And Mom and I will not feel like we are outcasts when trying to do the right thing, be who we are, and follow Jesus Christ.
Through it all, a peaceful calm hits. I actually do see the light at the end of the tunnel. Seeing Mom worshipping at Mass. Hearing David’s lovely rendition of ‘Wondrous Love’ on the Piano. Speaking with Uncle Sam, Mike and Anna, Katie and Johnny in the congregation, I know there are still loving people around who put God and others first! And who love me and Mom!
I received a wonderful note today from my dearest childhood friend, just when I needed it most. Jesus, you always amaze me. When I need you most, you DO let the signs shine through. You show love and compassion.
I will continue to strive to make my existence on this earth worthy of your love and forgiveness!
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Lent Day #38
I had nearly given up hope on salvaging anything from this week. Too many important obligations and responsibilities in such little time, even with only a few hours of sleep a night. However, you always pick me up. I don't know how or why you do it, God. But you do!
It must have been a hard week. Everyone at work was dragging. I even had two cups of coffee, and I don't drink coffee. After the second cup, I realized WHY I don't drink coffee. It does not help filling up on caffeine on an empty stomach!
You always manage to reveal some sign allowing me to recognize I do have a guardian angle watching over me, carrying me through the slush and mud.
First sign, my Mom is more animated. Her mind, faculties and sharpness, even some memory are back on track. Then, pulling into our parking garage at work, I was able to find a parking spot. You don't understand. Parking spots are rare commodities these days since our cameramen don't drive their company cars home anymore. Then, you have the whole STO phenomenon. Last week, in the tight squeeze, I grazed one of the parking barriers--I lost, the barrier won. My poor little car has some war scrapes which we are just gonna have to live with for the moment!
The work day was very disconnected for everyone. I can not explain it but everyone was in a fog and off kilter.
The unifying moment when everything came together occurred when my Mother called me at work. She had been trying to find an Aunt of mine. Finally I remembered to get on the www and look her up. I printed the first two phone #'s I found. My Mother called me nearly in tears saying she had spoken to Aunt Millie and had a wonderful conversation. It really did not matter what else happened for the rest of the day hearing the joy in my Mother's voice. I felt like I had played a part in something special by finding the link to reunite these two long lost friends. Words can not describe the emotions bubbling up inside.
However, if I learned one thing from this exchange, I learned that we do have an effect on others, a lasting effect at times. Aunt Millie thanked my Mother for bringing up my Uncle Johnny perfectly. My Grandma died at an early age and my Mother, who was the oldest female, was asked to help raise the children still left in the home. Uncle Johnny was the youngest, just the cutest thing you could ever see. My Mom and Uncle Johnny had a wonderful relationship up until the day he passed away. Aunt Millie also thanked Mom for showing her what family really means. Up until she met Uncle Johnny and Mom, she said the family unit was not a priority. They went back and forth reminiscing and recalling times past. If you would have asked me 24 hours ago if this was in the stars, I would have said no way.
Don't mess with God and His master plan. We think we have it all figured out. Ha! What we need to do is acquiesce to His teachings and His requests and He will take care of the rest!
It must have been a hard week. Everyone at work was dragging. I even had two cups of coffee, and I don't drink coffee. After the second cup, I realized WHY I don't drink coffee. It does not help filling up on caffeine on an empty stomach!
You always manage to reveal some sign allowing me to recognize I do have a guardian angle watching over me, carrying me through the slush and mud.
First sign, my Mom is more animated. Her mind, faculties and sharpness, even some memory are back on track. Then, pulling into our parking garage at work, I was able to find a parking spot. You don't understand. Parking spots are rare commodities these days since our cameramen don't drive their company cars home anymore. Then, you have the whole STO phenomenon. Last week, in the tight squeeze, I grazed one of the parking barriers--I lost, the barrier won. My poor little car has some war scrapes which we are just gonna have to live with for the moment!
The work day was very disconnected for everyone. I can not explain it but everyone was in a fog and off kilter.
The unifying moment when everything came together occurred when my Mother called me at work. She had been trying to find an Aunt of mine. Finally I remembered to get on the www and look her up. I printed the first two phone #'s I found. My Mother called me nearly in tears saying she had spoken to Aunt Millie and had a wonderful conversation. It really did not matter what else happened for the rest of the day hearing the joy in my Mother's voice. I felt like I had played a part in something special by finding the link to reunite these two long lost friends. Words can not describe the emotions bubbling up inside.
However, if I learned one thing from this exchange, I learned that we do have an effect on others, a lasting effect at times. Aunt Millie thanked my Mother for bringing up my Uncle Johnny perfectly. My Grandma died at an early age and my Mother, who was the oldest female, was asked to help raise the children still left in the home. Uncle Johnny was the youngest, just the cutest thing you could ever see. My Mom and Uncle Johnny had a wonderful relationship up until the day he passed away. Aunt Millie also thanked Mom for showing her what family really means. Up until she met Uncle Johnny and Mom, she said the family unit was not a priority. They went back and forth reminiscing and recalling times past. If you would have asked me 24 hours ago if this was in the stars, I would have said no way.
Don't mess with God and His master plan. We think we have it all figured out. Ha! What we need to do is acquiesce to His teachings and His requests and He will take care of the rest!
Lent Day #37
What started as a week with potential has been road block after road block. After the big blizzard, today is the first day that we can easily negotiate around this neighborhood. A few days ago I was trapped in our driveway for nearly a half hour waiting for the school kids and their parents to clear out of the small burrowed lane. Then yesterday, the Sears representative never showed during his allotted window. Our doctor never called back with pressing information. Dealing with various work issues has been like climbing Mt Everest! It has been disappointment after disappointment. I desperately need a dose of patience today.
I have lost faith in mankind. I rely on others to do their jobs. I count on others to be responsible. I expect others to be truthful. I can not tolerate others who have the word laziness in their vocabulary. These are the roadblocks I have run into all week long.
Today's reflection is perfect. Gn 17:3-9; Jn 8:51-59. The Saint Anthony Messenger Press speaks of Jesus and how He expresses the following saying: 'whoever keeps my word is a true child of Abraham.' I need to figure out how I can keep God's word and not let him down. Yet, it is so hard when it appears that others around me are going back on their promises to God. Then I step back, take a deep breath and realize, I can not judge anyone. I am seeing surface actions. I have no idea what is happening inside someone's heart and mind. I need to worry about me and me alone. God will handle the rest. Yet it is hard. Especially when others let me down making my journey even harder than it is.
I'm in the home stretch. I must focus. Focus on making this Lent meaningful and successful in the objectives that I jotted down weeks ago.
I have lost faith in mankind. I rely on others to do their jobs. I count on others to be responsible. I expect others to be truthful. I can not tolerate others who have the word laziness in their vocabulary. These are the roadblocks I have run into all week long.
Today's reflection is perfect. Gn 17:3-9; Jn 8:51-59. The Saint Anthony Messenger Press speaks of Jesus and how He expresses the following saying: 'whoever keeps my word is a true child of Abraham.' I need to figure out how I can keep God's word and not let him down. Yet, it is so hard when it appears that others around me are going back on their promises to God. Then I step back, take a deep breath and realize, I can not judge anyone. I am seeing surface actions. I have no idea what is happening inside someone's heart and mind. I need to worry about me and me alone. God will handle the rest. Yet it is hard. Especially when others let me down making my journey even harder than it is.
I'm in the home stretch. I must focus. Focus on making this Lent meaningful and successful in the objectives that I jotted down weeks ago.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Lent Day #36
The two reflections I read today were probably not meant to go together but their lessons overlap. In the first thought, God shares himself with us. He shows us the truth and the light if we only open our hearts and our minds. A good way to stay connected is through prayer. When we pray, we share our thoughts and worries and hopes with God.
In John's reading for today, he too, expresses the importance of sharing, staying connected and maintaining a closeness to our faith group. John speaks of the very small group gathered at the foot of Jesus' cross. Where did everyone else go? Why had they abandoned him? The ones left standing were Mary his mother, his aunt, another female named Mary, Mary Magdalene, and John.
Am I the kind of person who is so consumed with the Passover meal and other worldly details that I abandon my friends in need? I certainly hope not! This is a perfect time to pray over the kind of person we strive to be. I believe I truly want to be one of the few who are constantly in Jesus' circle, supporting him through thick and thin..and hopefully open and available for any friends and family members who need me and my prayers.
In John's reading for today, he too, expresses the importance of sharing, staying connected and maintaining a closeness to our faith group. John speaks of the very small group gathered at the foot of Jesus' cross. Where did everyone else go? Why had they abandoned him? The ones left standing were Mary his mother, his aunt, another female named Mary, Mary Magdalene, and John.
Am I the kind of person who is so consumed with the Passover meal and other worldly details that I abandon my friends in need? I certainly hope not! This is a perfect time to pray over the kind of person we strive to be. I believe I truly want to be one of the few who are constantly in Jesus' circle, supporting him through thick and thin..and hopefully open and available for any friends and family members who need me and my prayers.
Lent Day #35
This week's reflections seem to revolve around our relationship with God. Jesus had a wonderful relationship with God and did every last thing that was expected of Him, including sacrificing his life.
Really, how is MY relationship with God? I'd like to think it is Father to Child, no secrets, and love flowing down a two-way street. Unfortunately, when we get caught up in "life" it seems the first person we neglect or forget is God. We are so consumed with earthly obligations and our finite existence that we forget this is just a stop along the way to a better place.
We really need to remember constantly that God is with us, through thick and thin. We need to keep the lines of communication open. Even if we screw up, that's the great thing, God overlooks every shortcoming we have and smothers us with love. I would think we would welcome this type of relationship. So often, earthly relationships cause pain and sorrow or can be hurtful. The only one that loves us for us is God (except for maybe our little puppy dog who also loves us unconditionally!).
Nm 21:4-9; Jn 8:21-30.
Take some time to re-acquaint ourselves with our Father, our friend, who loves us for who we are inside.
Really, how is MY relationship with God? I'd like to think it is Father to Child, no secrets, and love flowing down a two-way street. Unfortunately, when we get caught up in "life" it seems the first person we neglect or forget is God. We are so consumed with earthly obligations and our finite existence that we forget this is just a stop along the way to a better place.
We really need to remember constantly that God is with us, through thick and thin. We need to keep the lines of communication open. Even if we screw up, that's the great thing, God overlooks every shortcoming we have and smothers us with love. I would think we would welcome this type of relationship. So often, earthly relationships cause pain and sorrow or can be hurtful. The only one that loves us for us is God (except for maybe our little puppy dog who also loves us unconditionally!).
Nm 21:4-9; Jn 8:21-30.
Take some time to re-acquaint ourselves with our Father, our friend, who loves us for who we are inside.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Lent Day #34
At times, all jobs are frazzling. Some more than others but, even if you love your job and what you do, there are those moments that can be exasperating. Just my opinion, but I am one of the only ones in the family who does not have a 9-5 job with holidays off. Pretty much on call 24-7. Sometimes stress-filled, often times insane, but I have been pretty patient and calm this Lenten Season.
Until now! We have a cast of characters who call the station on a daily basis and complain or ask the oddest, most off-the-wall questions. After hanging up scratching my head, I ask myself “why would ANYONE ever call a television station to ask that idiotic question?” But of course I can not and would never say that to the misguided viewer who has just wasted a few minutes of my life and interrupted me at my place of employment for a ridiculous request.
Well, today, we had our little “misguided man” who calls up ranting and raving about the story of the day. However, he has been known to call up to 50 to 60 or more times in the course of a shift. He screams, he swears, and he demeans you, but we are supposed to listen, smile and be courteous. However, we know it is him by his caller ID # of 216.441.XXXX.
After the 45th time he called today, interrupting me and my many duties, just to scream at me about how the city mishandled the snow or because we are still in the War with Iraq, or because of high gas prices, it started getting on my nerves a bit. I can not understand how anyone in their right mind could call a business over and over to swear at a hard working person who had nothing to do with causing his problem...or to waste someone’s very valuable time. I am sure he is not in his right mind. But that still does not give him the right to be rude and disruptive. It’s a wonder we are still sane…not totally jaded hating all of humanity….and, for the most part, kind individuals.
It’s times like these that I really really need your guidance, your strength, your calming effect, your patience, and the presence of mind to let things go. These people calling in are challenging my spirit. I could say worse, but then I would be one of them! However, it still rings true--what gives THEM the right to bother me at work. Bother me when I am trying to make an honest living to pay the bills and tend to my obligations. I know they are your children, God...
In times like these, I need to offer it up to you and TRUST in You.
Then, poof, I read the reflection for today which said basically, those without sin cast the first stone. It is very difficult, but I know I have to treat EVERYONE with patience, kindness, and gentleness, no matter what they have done to me, how they have harmed me, or persecuted me.
It's hard. This is a task I can not do alone. I desperately need your help today, God.
Until now! We have a cast of characters who call the station on a daily basis and complain or ask the oddest, most off-the-wall questions. After hanging up scratching my head, I ask myself “why would ANYONE ever call a television station to ask that idiotic question?” But of course I can not and would never say that to the misguided viewer who has just wasted a few minutes of my life and interrupted me at my place of employment for a ridiculous request.
Well, today, we had our little “misguided man” who calls up ranting and raving about the story of the day. However, he has been known to call up to 50 to 60 or more times in the course of a shift. He screams, he swears, and he demeans you, but we are supposed to listen, smile and be courteous. However, we know it is him by his caller ID # of 216.441.XXXX.
After the 45th time he called today, interrupting me and my many duties, just to scream at me about how the city mishandled the snow or because we are still in the War with Iraq, or because of high gas prices, it started getting on my nerves a bit. I can not understand how anyone in their right mind could call a business over and over to swear at a hard working person who had nothing to do with causing his problem...or to waste someone’s very valuable time. I am sure he is not in his right mind. But that still does not give him the right to be rude and disruptive. It’s a wonder we are still sane…not totally jaded hating all of humanity….and, for the most part, kind individuals.
It’s times like these that I really really need your guidance, your strength, your calming effect, your patience, and the presence of mind to let things go. These people calling in are challenging my spirit. I could say worse, but then I would be one of them! However, it still rings true--what gives THEM the right to bother me at work. Bother me when I am trying to make an honest living to pay the bills and tend to my obligations. I know they are your children, God...
In times like these, I need to offer it up to you and TRUST in You.
Then, poof, I read the reflection for today which said basically, those without sin cast the first stone. It is very difficult, but I know I have to treat EVERYONE with patience, kindness, and gentleness, no matter what they have done to me, how they have harmed me, or persecuted me.
It's hard. This is a task I can not do alone. I desperately need your help today, God.
5th Weekend into Lent
This weekend's reflections focus again on "clearing the clutter." Well, God sure has helped us with that! We are in the midst of one of the biggest snow storms in a long time. No one can get in or out. That is certainly one way to clear the clutter, to spend quality time with those we are with or just meditate on our own.
Jn 11:1-45; 12:20-33; 8:1-11.
In one lesson I read, we need to learn how to wait. Again, sitting in the house surrounded by two feet of snow is definitely a way to learn how to wait. Wait for the City Plow. Wait for the driveway plow. Wait for the snow to stop. Wait for the sun to come out. It goes on and on. Yet, all are so true.
This Sunday's readings coincide so well with what is happening outside. Mary and Martha asked Jesus to help Lazarus. Why, why did not help Lazarus sooner? What they failed to recognize at first is that God and Jesus can do anything at any time. They just had to 'wait' and God eventually answered their prayer.
Again, we have the 'wait' theme. And the 'faith in God' theme. Something, that when Lent is over, I will be able to maintain and remember on a daily basis. The last two Sundays, the lesson has been wait and have faith in the Father. That is easier said than done. We must never lose hope in God. He knows what we need more than we do. We 'think' we know what we need or what will make us happy. But God really knows. We may ask or pray for something and feel that God has not answered or prayer. Well, I was always taught, God answers ALL prayers. He may not answer them the way we want, but he answers them in the way we NEED.
Even with the mounds of snow, our Church did not close. We had 7 believers trudge through the snow for Saturday Mass. We had 20 for Sunday morning Mass. And amazingly enough, we had over 100 people attend the 11am Sunday Mass. What a testament to our Church and the believers in this neighborhood. God is still alive and well. Some days we have to look a little harder, but truly, today, it was not hard to see. Among the feet and feet of snow, God still sends his message of hope. Many birds and squirrels are buzzing around even though there are few signs of life during this blizzard.
We just have to keep the faith, clear the clutter, open our eyes for God's sign and wait. We will see and hear from Him. It's certain, if we believe!
Jn 11:1-45; 12:20-33; 8:1-11.
In one lesson I read, we need to learn how to wait. Again, sitting in the house surrounded by two feet of snow is definitely a way to learn how to wait. Wait for the City Plow. Wait for the driveway plow. Wait for the snow to stop. Wait for the sun to come out. It goes on and on. Yet, all are so true.
This Sunday's readings coincide so well with what is happening outside. Mary and Martha asked Jesus to help Lazarus. Why, why did not help Lazarus sooner? What they failed to recognize at first is that God and Jesus can do anything at any time. They just had to 'wait' and God eventually answered their prayer.
Again, we have the 'wait' theme. And the 'faith in God' theme. Something, that when Lent is over, I will be able to maintain and remember on a daily basis. The last two Sundays, the lesson has been wait and have faith in the Father. That is easier said than done. We must never lose hope in God. He knows what we need more than we do. We 'think' we know what we need or what will make us happy. But God really knows. We may ask or pray for something and feel that God has not answered or prayer. Well, I was always taught, God answers ALL prayers. He may not answer them the way we want, but he answers them in the way we NEED.
Even with the mounds of snow, our Church did not close. We had 7 believers trudge through the snow for Saturday Mass. We had 20 for Sunday morning Mass. And amazingly enough, we had over 100 people attend the 11am Sunday Mass. What a testament to our Church and the believers in this neighborhood. God is still alive and well. Some days we have to look a little harder, but truly, today, it was not hard to see. Among the feet and feet of snow, God still sends his message of hope. Many birds and squirrels are buzzing around even though there are few signs of life during this blizzard.
We just have to keep the faith, clear the clutter, open our eyes for God's sign and wait. We will see and hear from Him. It's certain, if we believe!
Monday, March 10, 2008
Lent Day #31
Wis 2:1a, 12-22; Jn 7:1-2, 10, 25-30.
I guess I speak to Jesus everyday as if he were a contemporary. And he is. He has gone through everything imaginable. Therefore, he can assist me in all of my problems, worries, concerns, trials and tribulations.
Today's reflection talks about gossip and worrying about what others say about us. Yes, on one hand I want people to like and respect me for who I am. On the other hand, I try very hard to be me and say "they'll have to like me for me!" But, who am I kidding. I am a very sensitive person. If someone has a wrong idea about me, I fight it. If someone has slandered my name, I find the truth. I DO want to be well-liked and popular.
I have done some pretty crazy and outrageous things to gain someone's love or attention. I've spent a lot of money trying to "win over friends." At the time, I did not realize it. Looking back, whew! However, I was just trying to fit in and treat my friends or help my friends in need. It's a vicious circle. Sometimes those we help take advantage of us. I try very hard to turn the other cheek and continue giving and helping regardless of how many times I have been taken advantage of. But it hurts. You don't know if someone likes you for you or because you can drive them around, or pay for their drinks, or give them a loan, or whatever!
That's when I call on Jesus. Because, frankly, everything has been done to him. He has been used, abused, scorned, tortured, slandered, teased for who he hung with... He kept on the straight and narrow and did not let what anyone said about him or who he kept company with (tax collectors, fishermen, prostitutes) bother him.
I've done very well at work. Today was a bit dicey, a bit unorganized. However, I thank you for helping me let it roll off of my shoulders. Letting me just take one minute at a time. That's all we can do. I have a lot of worries and when I offer them up to you, I have this calm overtake me. Others have noticed a change. I like the change. We have laughed a lot more at work lately. It's not worth getting upset over something out of your control. It's not worth getting tense over a problem that someone else caused. All I can do is my best. And, we have laughed and worked in such syncronicity, having you as my auto pilot, Jesus, has made the difference this week!
Now, I am offering up getting home in this winter storm....safely....and being able to get into my driveway. Normally, I would be tense. But not tonight. I do believe you are sitting in the passenger seat as I make my trek home!
Yes, safe and sound all locked up. I could not have done it without you!
I guess I speak to Jesus everyday as if he were a contemporary. And he is. He has gone through everything imaginable. Therefore, he can assist me in all of my problems, worries, concerns, trials and tribulations.
Today's reflection talks about gossip and worrying about what others say about us. Yes, on one hand I want people to like and respect me for who I am. On the other hand, I try very hard to be me and say "they'll have to like me for me!" But, who am I kidding. I am a very sensitive person. If someone has a wrong idea about me, I fight it. If someone has slandered my name, I find the truth. I DO want to be well-liked and popular.
I have done some pretty crazy and outrageous things to gain someone's love or attention. I've spent a lot of money trying to "win over friends." At the time, I did not realize it. Looking back, whew! However, I was just trying to fit in and treat my friends or help my friends in need. It's a vicious circle. Sometimes those we help take advantage of us. I try very hard to turn the other cheek and continue giving and helping regardless of how many times I have been taken advantage of. But it hurts. You don't know if someone likes you for you or because you can drive them around, or pay for their drinks, or give them a loan, or whatever!
That's when I call on Jesus. Because, frankly, everything has been done to him. He has been used, abused, scorned, tortured, slandered, teased for who he hung with... He kept on the straight and narrow and did not let what anyone said about him or who he kept company with (tax collectors, fishermen, prostitutes) bother him.
I've done very well at work. Today was a bit dicey, a bit unorganized. However, I thank you for helping me let it roll off of my shoulders. Letting me just take one minute at a time. That's all we can do. I have a lot of worries and when I offer them up to you, I have this calm overtake me. Others have noticed a change. I like the change. We have laughed a lot more at work lately. It's not worth getting upset over something out of your control. It's not worth getting tense over a problem that someone else caused. All I can do is my best. And, we have laughed and worked in such syncronicity, having you as my auto pilot, Jesus, has made the difference this week!
Now, I am offering up getting home in this winter storm....safely....and being able to get into my driveway. Normally, I would be tense. But not tonight. I do believe you are sitting in the passenger seat as I make my trek home!
Yes, safe and sound all locked up. I could not have done it without you!
Lent Day #30
In this week where the theme is getting rid of the worry in our lives and minds, it's not as easy as it seems. We are officially 1/2 way through Lent. And I am worrying that I will not live up to everything I want to accomplish! The irony is maddening.
Ex 32:7-14; Jn 5:31-47. We need to live to praise and honor God. Oftentimes, in today's society, we live to make others happy. It's fine to want to make someone happy or do something nice for someone else. But living to get glory from others besides God is quite self serving. It's hard though. It's very hard to go against the grain and do what is right rather than be popular and well-liked.
I am gonna try very hard to do what is right regardless of gaining other people's approval.
The greatest dis-service, Pilate going against what he believed what was right, and handing over Jesus to be crucified. Pilate truly believed Jesus was innocent and tried numerous times to release him. For whatever reason, whether the Pharisees or masses thought Jesus was a threat, they disliked him from the getgo. So unfortunately, Pilate followed the masses. However, we have to remember, this was all part of God's plan. Jesus died to save us all.
Ex 32:7-14; Jn 5:31-47. We need to live to praise and honor God. Oftentimes, in today's society, we live to make others happy. It's fine to want to make someone happy or do something nice for someone else. But living to get glory from others besides God is quite self serving. It's hard though. It's very hard to go against the grain and do what is right rather than be popular and well-liked.
I am gonna try very hard to do what is right regardless of gaining other people's approval.
The greatest dis-service, Pilate going against what he believed what was right, and handing over Jesus to be crucified. Pilate truly believed Jesus was innocent and tried numerous times to release him. For whatever reason, whether the Pharisees or masses thought Jesus was a threat, they disliked him from the getgo. So unfortunately, Pilate followed the masses. However, we have to remember, this was all part of God's plan. Jesus died to save us all.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Lent Day #29
Today's reflection is very powerful. It kinda socks you and knocks you over. Is 49:8-15; Jn 5:17-30. God put Jesus on this earth. Jesus was doing God's will. Jesus needed God. We think this man who healed the blind, cured the leper, brought the dead back to life --even HE needed God. If Jesus needed God, then we REALLY need Him!
This is a very humbling thought. I often think of those people who claim to not believe in anything, anyone, or any higher being. I honestly can not see how they can get through life. I have to talk to Jesus almost every second of every day to make it through. Some days are better than others, but even those days, I thank Jesus for the beautiful sun shimmering on the white snow or the birds chirping with 20 inches of snow outside my door. I can not imagine not having God in my life.
It has to be a conscious effort, but I am trying so hard to make the effort to let fear and worry exit my being and roll off my shoulders.
Pilate is toying with this very same issue many many years ago. Pilate is for Jesus deep down inside, but outwardly, is acting as if he does not need him. Quite the struggle that even Pilate, such a powerful man, had to deal with in Jesus' time. Well, we all know the outcome of Pilate's battle. But deep down inside, I believe that Pilate was for Jesus, did believe in Jesus and God and realized what he had done after the fact.
If Jesus needs God, and Pilate toys back and forth with this issue, than little ole me definitely needs assistance.
This is a very humbling thought. I often think of those people who claim to not believe in anything, anyone, or any higher being. I honestly can not see how they can get through life. I have to talk to Jesus almost every second of every day to make it through. Some days are better than others, but even those days, I thank Jesus for the beautiful sun shimmering on the white snow or the birds chirping with 20 inches of snow outside my door. I can not imagine not having God in my life.
It has to be a conscious effort, but I am trying so hard to make the effort to let fear and worry exit my being and roll off my shoulders.
Pilate is toying with this very same issue many many years ago. Pilate is for Jesus deep down inside, but outwardly, is acting as if he does not need him. Quite the struggle that even Pilate, such a powerful man, had to deal with in Jesus' time. Well, we all know the outcome of Pilate's battle. But deep down inside, I believe that Pilate was for Jesus, did believe in Jesus and God and realized what he had done after the fact.
If Jesus needs God, and Pilate toys back and forth with this issue, than little ole me definitely needs assistance.
Lent Day #28
Today's reflections include Is 65:17-21; Jn 4:43-54. It is hard to put all of our trust in someone and stop worrying. Part of it is that whole "control factor." We figure the more control we have over something, some situation, or even someone, the smoother everything will turn out.
With God, that's not how it works. We must put our trust in Him. We must believe he has a plan for all of us. We can't say we believe or trust him and then squint out of one of our eyes to make sure what we want to happen IS happening!
When things are going well, we cruise right along. At those moments, we can take God for granted. However, when times are tough, we also need to cruise along and believe God is with us. We really have to believe that God is infinite, God is all powerful, God is gentle, God is with us and God loves us!
For those of us who, for the most part are healthy and in charge, we have difficulty admitting that we are not in control!
But, just put yourself in someone's shoes who is at the mercy of someone else. Maybe due to health problems or mental issues or even mobility difficulties. Those followers of God HAVE to put their trust in God and the people that are helping them. Some people on this earth can not get along on their own. At this time I can not imagine that fact. But, I have gotten a second hand account of this from someone very close to me who has all of their faculties and zest for life, but they can not get around as well as they would like to at this time. It's a struggle. It's a struggle for the person who is stifled as well as the person or people helping them. However, it is an excellent exercise in trust, and not worrying, and putting our entire being into the hands of God above.
With God, that's not how it works. We must put our trust in Him. We must believe he has a plan for all of us. We can't say we believe or trust him and then squint out of one of our eyes to make sure what we want to happen IS happening!
When things are going well, we cruise right along. At those moments, we can take God for granted. However, when times are tough, we also need to cruise along and believe God is with us. We really have to believe that God is infinite, God is all powerful, God is gentle, God is with us and God loves us!
For those of us who, for the most part are healthy and in charge, we have difficulty admitting that we are not in control!
But, just put yourself in someone's shoes who is at the mercy of someone else. Maybe due to health problems or mental issues or even mobility difficulties. Those followers of God HAVE to put their trust in God and the people that are helping them. Some people on this earth can not get along on their own. At this time I can not imagine that fact. But, I have gotten a second hand account of this from someone very close to me who has all of their faculties and zest for life, but they can not get around as well as they would like to at this time. It's a struggle. It's a struggle for the person who is stifled as well as the person or people helping them. However, it is an excellent exercise in trust, and not worrying, and putting our entire being into the hands of God above.
Lent Day #27
This week's reflections focus on worry and trying to stop worrying as we put our trust in God. Jn 9:1-41; Jn 3:14-21; Lk 15:1-3, 11-32.
My Mother has this great gift of "not worrying." I'm not sure how she does it, but 99 percent of the time, she is on the money! I, on the other hand, have always been called the "what if girl." I try solving everyone's problems--even before they happen. This is something that I have been trying very hard to conquer this Lent. And, honestly, I think I have a solid start.
Why should I worry about petty little things when Jesus put his worries aside and let his Father's plan play out. He was crucified to save us. He put his faith and trust in God knowing God would take care of Him. And He did.
Pilate, a high ranking official, was also in peril as he worried about putting Jesus to death. He was afraid. Yet, he too, should have just put his faith in the Father and trusted in what was about to unfold.
We are rounding second and heading toward home this Lenten Season. Let us toss all worries aside, and dedicate the rest of the Lenten Season to God and what he has in store for us (whether it is what we want or not, just accept his gifts and direction).
My Mother has this great gift of "not worrying." I'm not sure how she does it, but 99 percent of the time, she is on the money! I, on the other hand, have always been called the "what if girl." I try solving everyone's problems--even before they happen. This is something that I have been trying very hard to conquer this Lent. And, honestly, I think I have a solid start.
Why should I worry about petty little things when Jesus put his worries aside and let his Father's plan play out. He was crucified to save us. He put his faith and trust in God knowing God would take care of Him. And He did.
Pilate, a high ranking official, was also in peril as he worried about putting Jesus to death. He was afraid. Yet, he too, should have just put his faith in the Father and trusted in what was about to unfold.
We are rounding second and heading toward home this Lenten Season. Let us toss all worries aside, and dedicate the rest of the Lenten Season to God and what he has in store for us (whether it is what we want or not, just accept his gifts and direction).
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
4th Weekend into Lent
This week has been a success. And today's readings and reflections mimic the positive week we've had. Hos 6:1-6; Lk 18:9-14. God loves me for me. Problems, weaknesses, sins, and all. He loves me and forgives me, which is something I have a hard time doing --forgiving myself and others. I shall take God's lead and not be afraid to show and admit my weaknesses and ask for God's help often.
Pilate, yet again, declares Jesus an innocent man in today's readings. He shows Jesus to the crowd in hopes they will have compassion for Him and set him free. Not a chance. This crowd is hungry to crucify Jesus Christ. I'm trying to put myself in their shoes. What would I have done? Would I have stood up for Jesus, being a free man? Would I have jumped on the bandwagon and blended in with the crowd? It's a very hard question. We know what it feels like today with peer pressures. Just imagine back then?
If this weekend is any inkling on how the rest of Lent will go, it may just be a success. We have accomplished so much this weekend. Great feats. Firsts (again) for Mom. Days like these make it easy to be upbeat, and a follower of Christ. It's when everything falls down that tests our faith.
A woman in our Choir just lost her Father. I can not even imagine how she is feeling right now. The best thing any of us can do is offer our prayers, our love, our support and remember that no matter how bad we think we have it, there is always someone else who is suffering just as much if not more.
Another reading from today shows how Samuel made a visit....and he ultimately chose the 'runt' of the family to follow him and do his work. He chose David, who wound up being one of Jesus' strongest followers through time. Jesus does not look at our outside, or how good looking we are. He looks inside at our hearts. He knows we are not perfect and still loves us. The challenge is for US to look at ourselves and love us for not being perfect, for being weak or 'the runt' of the family sometimes. We must never lose hope in God. We must also become more faith-filled, and less blind in order to follow God's lead.
Please help me, in the week ahead, forgive myself and those around me for any weaknesses or shortcomings.
Pilate, yet again, declares Jesus an innocent man in today's readings. He shows Jesus to the crowd in hopes they will have compassion for Him and set him free. Not a chance. This crowd is hungry to crucify Jesus Christ. I'm trying to put myself in their shoes. What would I have done? Would I have stood up for Jesus, being a free man? Would I have jumped on the bandwagon and blended in with the crowd? It's a very hard question. We know what it feels like today with peer pressures. Just imagine back then?
If this weekend is any inkling on how the rest of Lent will go, it may just be a success. We have accomplished so much this weekend. Great feats. Firsts (again) for Mom. Days like these make it easy to be upbeat, and a follower of Christ. It's when everything falls down that tests our faith.
A woman in our Choir just lost her Father. I can not even imagine how she is feeling right now. The best thing any of us can do is offer our prayers, our love, our support and remember that no matter how bad we think we have it, there is always someone else who is suffering just as much if not more.
Another reading from today shows how Samuel made a visit....and he ultimately chose the 'runt' of the family to follow him and do his work. He chose David, who wound up being one of Jesus' strongest followers through time. Jesus does not look at our outside, or how good looking we are. He looks inside at our hearts. He knows we are not perfect and still loves us. The challenge is for US to look at ourselves and love us for not being perfect, for being weak or 'the runt' of the family sometimes. We must never lose hope in God. We must also become more faith-filled, and less blind in order to follow God's lead.
Please help me, in the week ahead, forgive myself and those around me for any weaknesses or shortcomings.
Lent Day #24
As I read today's reflections, even Saints get slighted. Today, being February 29th, is the Feast of St John Cassian. Yet we only celebrate his feastday every four years. John Cassian lived in a monastery, became a deacon and then founded two monasteries. Not bad for someone who is only honored every four years!
He puts me in my place. Someone who did so much, yet is a blip on the radar. I will think of St John Cassian often, especially when I am feeling as if I did not get the right props or pat on the back!
In today's readings, Pilate is having an awful time trying to decide what to do. He does not want to kill Jesus, but wants to win the popularity contest. He goes a different route trying to get his outcome. He decides to have Jesus beaten hoping this will satisfy the masses and he will be off the hook for killing the King of the Jews.
We need to look at our lives and stand up for what is right, stand up for the truth. Even if that means finding the courage when we are afraid to do the right thing.
Our week of reflections on forgiveness and coming to terms with forgiving ourselves when we fail and overlooking others failures is winding down as we are completing yet another week of Lent. Overall, this has been a pretty darn good week. It's times like these when I ask "when will the other shoe drop? Things are going too well!"
He puts me in my place. Someone who did so much, yet is a blip on the radar. I will think of St John Cassian often, especially when I am feeling as if I did not get the right props or pat on the back!
In today's readings, Pilate is having an awful time trying to decide what to do. He does not want to kill Jesus, but wants to win the popularity contest. He goes a different route trying to get his outcome. He decides to have Jesus beaten hoping this will satisfy the masses and he will be off the hook for killing the King of the Jews.
We need to look at our lives and stand up for what is right, stand up for the truth. Even if that means finding the courage when we are afraid to do the right thing.
Our week of reflections on forgiveness and coming to terms with forgiving ourselves when we fail and overlooking others failures is winding down as we are completing yet another week of Lent. Overall, this has been a pretty darn good week. It's times like these when I ask "when will the other shoe drop? Things are going too well!"
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Lent Day #23
In one of today's reflections from the St Anthony Messenger Press, united we stand, divided we fall. Jer 7:23-28; Lk 11:14-23. One of the biggest dividers among God's disciples is failure to forgive. We are human. I am human. I admit sometimes I find it very difficult to forgive someone, who in my eyes, hurt me.
If we harbor ill feelings and ill will, a bigger problem develops. We are often called "childish" or unreasonable by not letting go and granting forgiveness. We, too, are miserable. It behoves everyone to forgive! The 'forgiver' and the 'forgiven!' But again, the saying is so true: "easier said than done!" It's easy to say 'forgive your fellow man,' 'forgive your friend for hurting your feelings.' However hard we try to act as if we have not been hurt, humanity takes over.
The saga will be unfolding soon in my life. We usually get together and celebrate each birthday in the family. We go out for dinner, have cake and spend some quality time together. I love it! I love seeing everyone, catching up, being with those who are part of my history, people I would die for. We have a birthday coming up in a week or so. I'm sure and I sincerely hope we do get together. However, I have to admit, I have a little sadness lingering in my heart which I have been trying soooo hard to dispose of.
It seems each year around my birthday, everyone is too busy to have the full blown dinner, cake, and focus on me for a day! Am I being selfish? Probably. Am I being overly sensitive? Probably. Am I being unreasonable? ?????
My birthday came and went. I did get a few gifts and cards. No fanfare. No dinner. No cake. No one at my place of employment remembered. It was awful. I have vowed to never ever celebrate another birthday because frankly, they are awful every year. I can not say it was a total disaster. A dear friend from Tampa called me twice and even sent a card. He NEVER sends cards. I was impressed. But that did not stop me from ranting and raving each time he called as to how awful my day was unfolding. My best friend, who recently left our place and went elsewhere to work, called and wished me a happy day. When she found out how depressed I was, she had a few other former co-workers give me a buzz. That did brighten my day. I received 2 cards from those former co-workers which really overwhelmed me. So, no, it was not a complete disaster.
Maybe I'm overly sensitive because I am getting older and do not have that special person (never really have) to go overboard for me. No romantic dinners, no flowers at work, no 'big special gift' (laptop, digital camera, surprise weekend in Jamaica, or GPS tracker). I laugh when I see those commercials on how someone buys a CAR for someone else as a birthday or Christmas gift. Right!
As you can see, I am totally human. I have tried SO HARD this entire Lent to conquer feelings such as these. But it's easier said than done. It's times like these that I realize I have a ways to go in following in God's footsteps. I still have human feelings inside that get the best of me: pity, jealousy, spite, worthlessness, and anger at times. Most days are good. Most days I feel as if I did something good, did something right, acted 'God-like.' Then every once in a blue moon, I am struck down spiralling back to reality.
Everything happens for a reason. I know that. If I am worthy, God will give me my reward in heaven. But I know there will be probably many more times when I feel throngs of pity. I just have to bite my tongue, clench God's hand, try to forgive those that, in my eyes, have hurt me--not only for their sake but for mine! Spend time trying really hard to grant forgiveness to others and forgive myself as well. I need to learn how to forgive myself when I feel I have fallen short and gone astray. God does!
If we harbor ill feelings and ill will, a bigger problem develops. We are often called "childish" or unreasonable by not letting go and granting forgiveness. We, too, are miserable. It behoves everyone to forgive! The 'forgiver' and the 'forgiven!' But again, the saying is so true: "easier said than done!" It's easy to say 'forgive your fellow man,' 'forgive your friend for hurting your feelings.' However hard we try to act as if we have not been hurt, humanity takes over.
The saga will be unfolding soon in my life. We usually get together and celebrate each birthday in the family. We go out for dinner, have cake and spend some quality time together. I love it! I love seeing everyone, catching up, being with those who are part of my history, people I would die for. We have a birthday coming up in a week or so. I'm sure and I sincerely hope we do get together. However, I have to admit, I have a little sadness lingering in my heart which I have been trying soooo hard to dispose of.
It seems each year around my birthday, everyone is too busy to have the full blown dinner, cake, and focus on me for a day! Am I being selfish? Probably. Am I being overly sensitive? Probably. Am I being unreasonable? ?????
My birthday came and went. I did get a few gifts and cards. No fanfare. No dinner. No cake. No one at my place of employment remembered. It was awful. I have vowed to never ever celebrate another birthday because frankly, they are awful every year. I can not say it was a total disaster. A dear friend from Tampa called me twice and even sent a card. He NEVER sends cards. I was impressed. But that did not stop me from ranting and raving each time he called as to how awful my day was unfolding. My best friend, who recently left our place and went elsewhere to work, called and wished me a happy day. When she found out how depressed I was, she had a few other former co-workers give me a buzz. That did brighten my day. I received 2 cards from those former co-workers which really overwhelmed me. So, no, it was not a complete disaster.
Maybe I'm overly sensitive because I am getting older and do not have that special person (never really have) to go overboard for me. No romantic dinners, no flowers at work, no 'big special gift' (laptop, digital camera, surprise weekend in Jamaica, or GPS tracker). I laugh when I see those commercials on how someone buys a CAR for someone else as a birthday or Christmas gift. Right!
As you can see, I am totally human. I have tried SO HARD this entire Lent to conquer feelings such as these. But it's easier said than done. It's times like these that I realize I have a ways to go in following in God's footsteps. I still have human feelings inside that get the best of me: pity, jealousy, spite, worthlessness, and anger at times. Most days are good. Most days I feel as if I did something good, did something right, acted 'God-like.' Then every once in a blue moon, I am struck down spiralling back to reality.
Everything happens for a reason. I know that. If I am worthy, God will give me my reward in heaven. But I know there will be probably many more times when I feel throngs of pity. I just have to bite my tongue, clench God's hand, try to forgive those that, in my eyes, have hurt me--not only for their sake but for mine! Spend time trying really hard to grant forgiveness to others and forgive myself as well. I need to learn how to forgive myself when I feel I have fallen short and gone astray. God does!
Lent Day #22
A sampling of today's lesson includes Jn 18:37-38. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. We must always remember this. Even when we are challenged or discouraged, we must gravitate toward Jesus and his beliefs.
Today was an extremely challenging day. Mother Nature's snow machine never stopped. A disadvantage for those of us who had early morning obligations. Quite harrowing at one point. There is absolutely no way I could shovel our yard in time to get to our appointment. I felt as if I was going to have a heart attack or keel over. We do have a plow guy, but he plowed the grounds of a school that cancelled today instead of the customers that needed to get out of their driveways.
From the getgo, I could tell I was going to be challenged time and time again by the elements, the lack of common sense by many, and my own mental as well as physical weaknesses.
I was right. Nothing made sense today. From the early phone calls to the actions of others to almost giving up because I was too fatigued to solve everyone's problems (or at least it seemed like everyone was placing their problems in my lap).
I must keep remembering that God puts challenges in our paths to make us stronger. He never gives us anything we can not handle. It's hard to believe, at times, but I (we) must in order to keep going and continue being disciples sent out to spread the good news.
Today was an extremely challenging day. Mother Nature's snow machine never stopped. A disadvantage for those of us who had early morning obligations. Quite harrowing at one point. There is absolutely no way I could shovel our yard in time to get to our appointment. I felt as if I was going to have a heart attack or keel over. We do have a plow guy, but he plowed the grounds of a school that cancelled today instead of the customers that needed to get out of their driveways.
From the getgo, I could tell I was going to be challenged time and time again by the elements, the lack of common sense by many, and my own mental as well as physical weaknesses.
I was right. Nothing made sense today. From the early phone calls to the actions of others to almost giving up because I was too fatigued to solve everyone's problems (or at least it seemed like everyone was placing their problems in my lap).
I must keep remembering that God puts challenges in our paths to make us stronger. He never gives us anything we can not handle. It's hard to believe, at times, but I (we) must in order to keep going and continue being disciples sent out to spread the good news.
Lent Day #21
First, this is the day the Blessed Mother made her 10th appearance to St. Bernadette, back in 1858. Our religion is based on Faith. We have a history that was recorded at the time or a short time after events happened. They have been passed down through history. In my mind, they all happened or the visions, the stories, and the strength of this religion would have died out and faded away. I believe, even though I have not witnessed!
One of today's reflections (and the theme for the week) is forgiveness. It is very hard to forgive, but in light of the fact that Jesus forgives us every single time we sin, it is the least we can do as children of God--to forgive those who have offended us, persecuted us for our beliefs, mocked and betrayed us.
A very hard task, but no one said life was easy!
One of today's reflections (and the theme for the week) is forgiveness. It is very hard to forgive, but in light of the fact that Jesus forgives us every single time we sin, it is the least we can do as children of God--to forgive those who have offended us, persecuted us for our beliefs, mocked and betrayed us.
A very hard task, but no one said life was easy!
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