Girls' afternoon out

I can't remember the last time I had one of these?

It's the 21st century! I received a text message last night while I was at church asking what I was doing today.

Well, it's Sunday. I was singing at all the Masses and then trying to get myself out of the tailspin I've been in since before Mom passed away.

Not doing very well with her death. I guess I am doing better than others who have lost a loved one, but honestly, I put on a good front. When I am alone, I am a mess.

I have learned NOT to beat myself up. It's been less than 3 months since Mom passed away and I have a feeling I have a lot more grieving to do. I've not even begun going through Mom's things and will not be doing that for a while. I can bearly get up in the morning. So I am cutting myself some slack.

I decided to meet 2 very good friends for a late lunch. We've all lost people recently. Mo just lost her Mom about a month after Mom died and Q lost her grandmother.

It was nice getting out, with dear female friends, and talking.

When people ask me how I am, I hesitate telling them to full truth, but we did touch on some personal issues, 'girlie' topics, and enjoyed some reassuring conversation.

All in all a very nice time had by all.....got home with time to spare to get my groove on for the Grammy Awards.

Another bitter sweet night --Mom and I always watched the Grammy's. My Mom was one of THE coolest, THE hippest chicks in the world. Last year she just loved watching the lead singer from Cold Play in his sockless shoes and tight-tight shirt!

Every minute of every day will continue being a struggle.....I just hope I can endure.