This month is turning out to be a carbon copy of May 2010, which on one hand is a heavenly thought, yet on the other hand, a rocky omen to what turned out to be a total let down, wind out of my sails happenstance in 2010.
On the bright side, my fitness, toning down movement continues in the right path.....not at the swift pace it had been traveling, but it has not stalled. I'm progressing toward the -40 pound mark and am quite proud at my accomplishment to date, but what's even more exciting is how my family and friends seem to be even more excited and proud of me and continue giving me the needed encouragement necessary to keep this project alive!
A bittersweet comparison: I still have my LIVE Christmas tree up surrounded by the rest of my Christmas decorations. If my tree is still alive, why take it down, right? But, a con is that I'm in the same rut I lived last May, and don't have any zest or drive to do anything including packing up my Christmas decorations for the year.
On the plus side, this is a month with many family celebrations....birthdays, Mother's Day, the Kentucky Derby and Preakness, remembrance Masses for family members, which allow all of us to gather, feast, laugh, and spend quality time together making new memories.
Teetering back to the dark side, it's Mother's Day. I miss my Mom more this year than last year. Those who said it only gets better may have been speaking for themselves solely but should not speak for others. 2011 has been an extremely hard year for me in every respect. This Mother's Day is 10x worse than 2010, especially the week leading up to the commemoration.
However, I made a vow when Mom passed never to skip over a special occasion, holiday, birthday, tradition, or event we'd all share. I'm very into keeping all of our family traditions alive until the day I die.
I waver back and forth with the single - attached status as well. There are days I totally enjoy being a bachelorette being able to go and do what I want when I want with whom I want....last week leisurely walked around the Farmer's Market enjoying the beautiful weather and the sights and sounds.... however, I'm thinking of my niece's upcoming wedding and am dreading going alone.
Then poof! As happened 1 year ago to the date, I began getting text messages from someone I never expected. It happened in 2010 to rev up the back end of May 2010, bringing me back to life....and it happened this May. I was speechless and stunned. But for the moment, I will savor it, take it all in, and just accept what is happening.
It's amazing how so few words can inject so much life into someone.
But yes, it appears that they were just words with no substance or meaning behind them. My friend, who I've actually been familiar with for a million years (as my Aunt always says!) & I reconnected on Facebook amazingly enough. I met this lad doing a commercial promotion shoot for work years ago. He's been on my radar ever since but I'm fairly confident I've never been on his radar, until recently.
Why on the radar now? Still not quite sure about that answer, but I won't refute it. This past weekend, we actually made a date to get together. Yes, a formal date. I should have known it was too good to be true.
I had dinner with the family and timed it out perfectly so that I could get home, change, and be ready for 'the date.' I'm still scratching my head whether he ever intended to meet me or .....He was quite convincing .....as he kept pushing back the meeting time due to a family emergency (which was legit, I checked).... I couldn't let the adult cocktails and hor doerves go to waste.
Everything happens for a reason right? It was quite funny actually. My girlfriend was worried about this 'date' so we had worked out a code should anything go awry and I need assistance....well, I gave her the 411 on how the night panned out, and though it pained my mind, it eased her's immensely!
Fortunately, the day after the miffed 'date' was another family event which as usual lifted my spirits and got me looking to the future....especially a future filled with baseball, my niece's wedding shower, and a jaunt to see my Tribe on the road soon.....oh there is hope on the horizon!
No comments:
Post a Comment