What if?

It's just amazing where time goes. I have so much to share from the last 3 weeks and have had next to no time to even jot down any thoughts.

Not for my readers, necessarily, because frankly, I know there are not many. But for myself to sort my thoughts out and just put images down for posterity for whence my memory goes!

I'm hoping to gradually get around to the highlights over the last 3 to 4 weeks! There are some doozies!

However, today was a very sobering day.

I spoke to someone, a very very dear friend, whom I have not spoken to in weeks. They had been a bit under the weather and were taking care of themselves.

I guess I did not realize how much I missed them until our chat!


However, being the 'what if girl,' I started thinking.

'What if' something did happen to me?

I am not married with a husband. Heck, I don't even have a boyfriend.

I have not been fortunate enough to have children.

Mom, though doing very well, probably could not handle this bundle.

I do have a sister, nieces and a nephew, aunts & uncles and cousins galore....but they all have their own lives.

I could not afford and could not survive on disability with no paycheck coming in...

If something happened to me, I would be S-O-L!


I believe that God does not give us anything we can not handle.


And I'd like to think that God would provide...


But being the finite individuals we are (not all knowing like God), the thought is quite sobering and frightening.


It's awful feeling totally alone and helpless.